SO as most of the people who read this and are my friends from Burke (my/our high school) May 12th was Seniors last day... It was roomy after they left for the LAST week of school.. :/
I hated when seniors left. I have so many friends who are older than mee... But no the real thing that made me a tid bit more sad than all my senior friends leaving this year and me and them prolly never talking to each other except that random time over facebook when we're both bored. Is that, the boy that everyone seems to think i'm OBSESSED with, but i'm not... i'm in love with him instead, he is a senior as well... He'll be busy with college life, and a job... And i'm already used to the "i'm to busy to hang out with you right now maybe some other time" routine with him but this will be a BIGGER thing now it'll be like "I'm too busy being out of high school to care to hang out with you maybe never later." Dx
Ok that was a bit over dramatic, he'll hang out with me i know he will.... He better if he knows whats good for him. XD JUST kidding. haha but no seriously h'll hang out with me. He already has considering the fact that MY last day of school was 2 weeks ago. and yeah me and him hung out about 3 or 4 times since schools ended... IDK but we've hung out... <3
ANYWAY, Junior year........ JUNIOR YEAR.... OMFG!!! JUNIOR YEAR! :D .... O.O .... DX
Time flies too fast. It feels like the Tuesday before school started back in 2010 D:
It's already the summer before my junior year... Ill have my licence sometime this year. Ill have a car and a job... Ill be on my own... kinda! D:
Those of you who do look for my posts i have a Plan Book. I have almost everything that i would like to happen in the future all planned out. Its MY plan book. My guide on what to do with my life. It has scholarship contests. It has things i'm supposed to do this summer. Things i want to do after high school. IT HAS EVERYTHING. Practically.
Sigh... I'm already a Junior. and though i have my whole life planned out for me... I'm freaking out. My plans are changing. Ive always been the girl who would never marry or date some one who wants to join any service branch, weather it be Navy, Army, Marines, Military, Air Force. Anything... Now... i'm thinking of joining... It pays for my college. I can stay hell a lot more active if i do.. :D... But... the real question is. Will i be willing to leave everyone i love behind to go to basic training? Or will i be too much of a chicken to leave them for a few months? Or what about active duty? Ill have to leave every now and again to go work.. FOR A LONG TIME... Who would want to stay with me? If i'm out leaving every now and again? Sigh... THIS WAS NOT in my plans... I hate it when you say you'd never date/marry or do something then one day it comes and bites you in the ass an all the sudden you WANT to do that...
Junior year.. A life to remember, things i want to do.Things i need to do.. Things that are surprising the hell out of me. I don't know what to do... Maybe i Want to go.. Maybe ill end up regretting it if i do? Maybe ill end up thinking that i don't want to any more? Sigh. I hate when life throws you an apple when you want lemons. :/
High School. Its not only Hell. Or Prison. Or Your worst nightmare. For some people its just a place to go to DO something for 8-9 hours a day... For others... It opens up your chances to what you want to do after high school is over.
Weather it may be going to college right after high school. Or Joining the Service.
Maybe you just don't know what you wanna do still, so you stay at home and figure things out. Some people can't wait to get the hell out of their home.
High School. It used to be the one place i loved to go. The place to be with my friends. See the guy i love. Have fun. Get away from my boring life at home. Now... Its my sanctuary. I'm calm when i'm there. I feel like its my second home. Like its the best place i could ever be. But slowly.. Yet surely.. I'll never have this place again. I'm almost done with HS... Almost Ready for the real world.
I don't know if my plan book will work any more.. My Mind is already making me thing of joining a service... I don't know what to do...
Life Gives you an apple... Throw it back and ask for lemonade.
Thats it for now. Till my next post thats gonna seem weird.
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