double date multi subject. :)

06/20/11

I can't help but to look at his profile on facebook.
When I do I see his pictures. So I browse...
Then, I can't help when I see them that I look at him and study how he looks.
Then I look in the mirror or at my own pictures...
Then I wonder... "What does he see in me?" (or what DID he see in me)
And I know it's bad for me to say that... but I honestly don't think he saw anything, looks wise in me..
Had to be personality right? Or... idk...
Wish I could ask him myself... but I'm too scared to because in a way I rather not find out.
And I don't wanna ask in present tense and him say "I don't like you anymore"
I feel like I'm going down a road that'll get me stuck in quick sand and each time I get pulled out ill get stuck again. Idk maybe I'm making things complicated by always talking about it??


So I'm changing the subject now.
I have enough in the bank for a car now :) I can't buy until I have my licence.
I'm trying for my licence next week on the 26th. Can't wait!!! :D
I know I'm going to pass :)

07/28/11

So yeah. Now i have my license. :)
Im so happy i knew i'd get it.

Oh so now i know you're probably wondering why i have a smallart of a post and above it has a date from a month ago.
Yeah since i got a job havn't had much time to blog.
And so now since i have time i'm blogging quickly.

A little updates.
I have my drivers license now.
Im getting a car next weekend (Friday the 5th - Sunday the 7th)
Then the following week im going back to school shopping sometime after work.

Speaking of school. I am going to be a Junior in High School now.
Wow how have the times passed.
It literally feels like i just started High school and im almost getting ready to graduate.

Im already in love. And ready to be with someone for the rest of my life.
And as you all know i alrready have that guy as to who in mind.

Lately ive been making a list of songs to make into a comic like i have with "if we ever meet again - Katy Perry ft. Timbland."
Some songs are:
-california king bed - rihanna
-rocketeer
----erm i have others but right now i can't remember.

Lately to get me through the long morning shifts ive been starting to plan (in my head) things that wont happene for years.
Like my graduation party.
Or wedding receptions.
To college orders. Etc.

Life of this teenage girl isnt normal. I actually have had goals these high since the 7th grade.
Having lots of fun with life giving me a break for once.

Anyway i hope this will do for a blog post.

**Star**