Did... did i lose my 2nd chance with you already?

So you say you'll go back out with me in a heart beat if I prove to you that i'm over him...
So i do my best to prove that i am. But for some reason you seem to not believe me... ?
Or was i wrong?
Am i really over him or am i not?

Okay no. I am. i know i am. Cause im more hung over you than i've been over him.
And i havnt even thought of him until you've put him into my mind. or until you've
done something to remotely seem like him. Or if Tasha mentions him. WHICH IS RARE AS FUCKING FUCK!!!

Sigh... i wanna give up on you. but i dont. Cause you know why? because thats America's easy way out. Just give up and move on.
Thats not me...
Heh, no wonder i stuck to him for so long.
But you Came along and you are my focus.
I dont just take the American easy road out.
I rather face the problems that are set in front of me.
Why? Because even though i get depressed to the point of wanting the easy way out
I try to stick it up and put up the fucking fight.

And Damn Boy. You're putting up the biggest fight ever.
First you seem to like me then, you seem that i you might not.
Then you say you would take me back in a heart beat,
But all i gotta do is prove that im over him.

If what i told you, really didnt prove to you anything...
Then... i dont know what will...

Proof is facts. And i gave you the facts of me being
done with wanting to be with him.

I want to be with you. And to be quite honest, even ask Tasha.
If i wanted to be with him still then i wouldnt have
bothered to tell Tasha that i thought you were cute.
or to blush each time we locked eyes,
or each time you touched my shoulder.
Or the more we talked the more and more i forgot that He even exsisted.

But if im not over him, appearently, then maybe i should just
idk. I dont want to do anything else than to try my hardest to
be close to you.


Im sorry if this comes off a bit bitchy, but im in a ranty mood.
You have every right to wonder if im over him or not.
Its the fact that you seem to not believe me that upsets me.

Im sorry. But i mean it. Im over him.
So... my only question(s) for you at the moment is...
Did i lose my 2nd chance with you already?
Or am i still able to be with you?


Sigh... G'night

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