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8.11.10

Demented Twisted Mind

Have you ever sat there in a seemingly harmless situation and something out of place and dark and visious... Hahaha or i mean something that looks like it will cause something vicsious or unsettleing?

I always do.
Today on the bus ride home from school. Some how one of the emergency windows opened. And i didnt knwo this until i saw the driver close it. I was lsitening to my MP3 player and all i heard was the faint talk of my driver saying something and then i heard a peer to say "I dont want to die" and instantly i imagined the bus driver telling us that the brakes didnt work and we were going about 40mph. Then we'd be driving for a while until we run out of gas and until the bus crashed. i kept replayign over an dover the many ways the bus would crash.


I findmyself with many disturbing and demented thioughts... I like grusome things. But i think our mind is the most gory and imaginative demented and detailed movie there is. And mine just tends to wonder on its own.
Everyday i arrive at school and go through school wondering if there will be an shooting or a terrorist attack or a bombing threat. Anything. Not just becaus ei want to be out of school but because i live my life for somethign bad to happen. i do dangerous things so i can come out with a broken bone or a gushing gap in my skin
I thkn dementedly and stupidly but i am smart. I know when and how not to do things. i sometimes even avoid the msot fun and risky things because i do get scared.


Well tis all for now my readers,
Your Wacky Little Writer,
Star :)

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