Todays the 5th

So todays probably going to be the most depressing day out of the WHOLE month.
Today would have been four months. Todays was supposed to be a "Happy Four months Hon" and a "Happy Four months to you too"
Now its happy one month we've been broken up... :/
I guess you can say i am over him, but at the same time im not.
Theres always going to be a part of me thats going to long to be with him.
Even after ive gotten with some one new.
Though of course by then i might have a new focus in life, ahem, AKA i new guy to help distract me from him.

but again Doesnt mean i wont want to still be with him because, AGAIN there will always be some part of me that will always wanna be with him. But i try not to get guy distracted when in a relationship, thus why i like wearing somthing of theirs all the time.

For example: He gave me a bracelett with his name on it, (i would have known it was his with out the name but it helped)

ANYWAY!!!!

life is great life is grand life is hard, life is BLAND...
Ive had nothing but great remindances of the relationship i miss. Songs atleast.

lets see, Teenage Dream. A thousand Miles. So many more. I stoped listening and feel back to sleep each time.

This day is the most depressing day ever. I might just go to Kookies Party since my other option just went straight out the door thanks to his dad... :/

Anyway, thats all for this very very very depressin post.

**Star**