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13.1.12

New year, New me, New everything.

So, 2012 the big year. The rumors will be answered this year... who all believes in this???
For the longest time, i believed it... I think theres a small part of me that still does. 
So this year... I'm gonna live it to the fullest. I turn 17 in May. 
I start my Senior year in August. 
Life is grand. I have a job, and I'm looking at colleges. I'm at the point in life where I've taken steps back and seen how far and how FAST time flies. 2 years, 5 years, 10!

I'm remember when i was 6, playing barbies in my clustered room, hording EVERYTHING!! :)

Fast forward 2 years, I'm 8 starting to see BOYS are frikken CUTE! Did he just look at me? What? Cooties aren't real??!

Add another 3 and it's been 5 years! I'm 11, halfway done with middle school. The nerd, the quiet one. But on the weekends... don't give me sugar ;) 

Add 5 more and I'm 16. I'm a Junior in High School. I have a job and a car. Boy crazy, I don't necessary horde (anymore) but I am messy!! Sugar is my bff, right next to Tasha-Bear, but don't gimme too much! I'm more ambitious and hoping to get out of this city!

Life passes faster than every one expects, just because the rumors are... well rumors doesn't mean it couldn't happen. Life is full of mysteries and it's our job to just live it. Figure things out one step at a time and live it the way WE want to live it. But don't spend too much time looking forward. Stop and take a breather here or there and LOOK AT THE SCENES!!! Smell the roses and have fun! Don't forget about the people who inhabit the world with you! You're friends and family. 
I mean, since 2009 I've been more eager to LEAVE this town. But i opened up and saw the world. I've made friends and I've had fun times, there are moments where i get lost looking forward and after too long i end up forgetting about everyone around me. But that's why i have Tasha in my life cause she snaps me back to reality and I relax a little and have fun...

I'll always be a bitch and state my mind, but I don't judge too easily... Unless, well you piss me off right away then ill start judging hardcore. Even though it goes against how i wanna be. 
From my history with people, in my life I've always been screwed over. No matter what. 
But because so, It's hard to gain my trust, but it's hard to get judged by me.  I'll say what is on my mind, but don't take it as judging, but my opinion. What people chose to do is how they chose to live their life. The only thing i wish for, for everyone, is that they live life the way they want to live it. And as long as they have it together I dont really care what they do, but doesnt and wont mean that ill agree with you're choices. 

It's just a small set back from time, realizing what i have, and how far ive gotten through it. How The world could have ended 10 years ago and If asked i would have said, "Yeah I'm only 6 and wish i had been able to knwo what its like to be older. But I like being a child." 
Now, i'd say, " I'm 17 and i had my life set and planned. I hadn't been living it the way i wanted to but i started it the way i wanted it to and if i could go back. I'd keep doing what i was doing." 

Life isn't what "God" created, it's what you create it to be. The fate is in YOUR hands not in something, or someone else's. It's wrong to say this considering people have put nothing but their life into believing that "God" is their fate. And It's what they believed, like i said it's what you create it and life, in your hands you just don't know it. That's fine. Blind obeidience

2012, if the rumors are true. Then i hope EVERYONE lives it to the fullest and make do with what they've accomplished this year. 
Cause I'm gonna try hard this year to get what i want done and accomplished. Starting with... Well... *looks at list* 
Turning my life around :)

Have a happy 2012 readers. No this isn't a "Happy New Years" post it's me...
Saying, this is the rumored year, 2012 live it to the fullest and get things straightened and set right for the "End" 

Love you all, with what ever readers i have ;)

Live this year for all your worthy-ness to pay off and let your self shine and get over fears or accomplish the un-tameable. Live your life. Have fun with it. And Stop to smell the roses every once in a while. :)

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