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28.1.12

I get it ok? I Understand.....

So yeah I'm 16.... I'm still young... I get it... I know there will be more opportunities to find someone to be with... but that doesn't mean I shouldn't be able to get one now!?
The problem is I... ugh. I just want some one... Someone to make me feel wanted.
And i will say this now, FRIENDS DON'T COUNT IN THIS FUCKING CATEGORY... -___-; good lord.
I understand, I'm young. I GET IT!
Stop telling me this. After the bajillionth time being told I think I get it... ok?
You all, however, don't seem to quite get the concept.
It's not because I'm boy crazy and I'm just going through a part of life where all I want is someone and later I'm going to come to terms with being single.
Don't get me wrong, there are times when I love being single... but almost been a year... A PERSONAL BEST considering I'm used to being with someone... ALL THE TIME.... Almost a frikken year since I've been with anyone I truly liked.
So yeah, I'm going to start to crave the feeling of actually being wanted by someone again.
Yeah I'm going to go through this craze of having one Crush one week and a few weeks later having a new crush (though I don't see this recent crush changing ANY time soon this one is my goal)
Yeah I'm going to be a bitch about it when you say I'm boy crazy. Yeah Ima seem SUPER obsessed with wanting a significant other. What of it though?
Everyone atleast once in there lifetime gets like this.
What I want may not last forever but there isn't anything wrong with wanting a relationship. Or even to hope that it does last forever.
Nothing
Wrong
With
It
OK???!

I'm 16. And I get it. I'm not stupid, and I'm not that dumb at understanding what you guys are telling me...

I'm a girl who know's what she wants. Knows who she wants. I have my life together and I just want someone... It gets depressing seeing all my friends with someone. Or at least having someone wanting to be with them even when they don't wanna be with that person.

Yeah i fucking get it that I shouldn't get all depressed over it. But after a while it jsut gets... UGH!


MY MAIN POINT OF THIS IS...

Yes, I get it, I'm 16 and there will be opportunities to be with someone, someone who wants to be with me... but I dont want to wait for the future to come to me... I know what I want and I go after it. It shouldn't be that    intimidating boys. I mean really? It should infact be a little bit of a attraction, when a girl goes after what she wants. Its a bold move.
Yet, I aim higher and guys go the other direction when I walk their way... wtf?






I'm not bad news you know....


**Star**

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