Is it bad the the only guy i want to be with doesnt want a gf right now. Or the fact that he told me he wouldnt flirt or he wouldnt go out with anyone... ((i dont knwo if he meant that because he waned to get back with me))... But then he flirts with me and i have a automatic reacon to it all the time to flirt back...
Is it bad that the only guy i want to be with doesnt want a gf right now?
Is it bad that i might have really strong feelings for this guy?
Is it bad that we can go back to being friends as if nothing happened between us?
Is it bad that i feel comfortable being his friend and girlffriend at the same time?
I mean friendship should come first right?
Is it bad that when i fall i fall hard and half the time the guy i fall for doesnt catch me...?
What really sucks is that i fell hard for this guy, but he caught me... then set me on the ground and walked into the friend circle.
Can anyone THAT ISNT MY SISTER** help me?
(**= read the ps to know what i mean by this)
I mean this guy is really sweet, hes a gentleman, and when im-- erm, when i WAS alone with him he showed me his soft side. He's uberly hott!!! When we're around friends he makes me smile, when its just us he makes me smile. When its just plain me and hes on my mind... He makes me smile (and lately hes always on my mind). Though, dont get me wrong, he does have flaws. Though they're flaws that i like that the other girl didnt. I like this guy for who he is and in return i hope he likes me for who i am.
Though one of his flaws are a completely demented and really scary (to others) i embrace them. Mainly cause demented things are really cool to watch and hear from some one.
This guy has got me strastruck...
I dont know what to do...
I mean i want him to know, even if he already knows, that i am still here waiting for him. And only him. He's really the only guy i like right now. The only guy i wish i was with... The only guy thats on my mind 24/7 that i like.
UGH! Im not obsessed, im not anything that you would think i am... I just really liek this guy... I have liked this guy since the 2nd semester of my 9th grade year.
Granted, yes, he is a year older than me and i barely knew him but i still liked him... Know i know a lot about him and i wish he knew what i was feeling right now... besides the feeling of being sick, i mean how i feel about him.
Anyway just comment caus ei really need your help AS LONG AS YOUR NOT MY SISTER, BROTHER, DAD, AUNT, UNCLE, OR EVEN COUSINS**!!!! the onyl acceptions i will take help from is MAYBE my sister in law, and friends or even the guy himself... ahem assuming he even reads this post....
Your Wacky Little Writer,
Star ://
Ps. ** What i mean by this the first time is that my sister makes it out that all im concerned for is boys boys boys. Im not. I actually care for my grades wheather or not i have friends and what im going to be doing after high school. This problem im having just pops up all the time. I'm still focused in school i still do my work and i still hang out with my friends. Garunteeing that the guy im talking about IS apart of my friend group...
And the second ** i put becaus ei listed all of those certain people is;
A. i just explained why i dont want my sister to comment
B. My oldest brother would be asking me for questions about this guy and then be a total dick and tell me that ((because of his color)) that hes not good for me
C. my Aunts i would completely die if they even read this and would start rambling on about what i dont want to hear
D. my uncles... idk i just dont want advice form ym uncles
E. my cousins... Welll idk i just REALLY dont want help from any family.
The only people i will accept help from is My sister in law(Heaven) because shes liek a sister but not related related. Plus she doesnt freak out as if she was my sister that thinks im overly concerned about guys. Plus she knows what guy im talkign about
And my friends because they know the particial situation and basically know the guy.
and the guy himself well not that he would read this but by some magical lehpricaun should he read this it'd be a lot fo help if he cleared thinsg up with me...
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