Lost and Writing

I feel like I've lost every thing. Well everything I need to survive in my life.
First i lose my mom a year and a half ago. Then, the one guy that ill ever truly love gives up on making it possible with me. I feel like if i even try to reach out towards him again he'll act like i'm this girl Alyssa... And he absolutely hates Alyssa...
Right now it feels like that one song Rihanna made? Her new song? "California King Bed":

"California King Bed"

Chest to chest
Nose to nose
Palm to palm
We were always just that close
Wrist to wrist
Toe to toe
Lips that felt just like the inside of a rose
So, how come when I reach out my finger
It feels like more than distance between us

In this California king bed
We're ten thousand miles apart
I've been California wishing on these stars
For your heart for me
My California king

Eye to eye
Cheek to cheek
Side by side
You were sleeping next to me
Arm in arm
Dusk to dawn
With the curtains drawn
And a little last night on these sheets
So, how come when I reach out my fingers
It seems like more than distance between us

In this California king bed

We're ten thousand miles apart
I've been California wishing on these stars
For your heart for me
My California king

Just when I felt like giving up on us
You turned around and gave me one last touch
That made everything feel better
And even then my eyes got wetter
So confused wanna ask you if you love me
But I don't wanna seem so weak
Maybe I've been California dreaming

In this California king bed
We're ten thousand miles apart
I've been California wishing on these stars
For your heart for me
My California king
My California King

In this California king bed
We're ten thousand miles apart
I've been California wishing on these stars
For your heart for me
My California king




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So i downloaded this backgrounds thing and it has little life quotes on some of them and i started writing all of the ones i liked! Soon i had over 3 pages of quotes written down. It was crazy! And im still writing a lot of them down!!!

That's it for this post.

**Star**