(Friday June 24th 2011)
So I watched a couple episodes of "Gilmore Girls" today, my first day off, and I almost started crying. ;/ cause it reminded me of my mom. Me and her would always watch that show it was like our little bonding show :)
We missed a few episodes sometimes but we always loved watching it :)
And while I was singing along with the theme song I almost started crying because it was hard for me to realize that I couldn't just stop cleaning my room run down stairs and tell my mom that the show was on channel 40 (ABC Family) and watch it with her again.... sigh. I hate those moments. I wish everyday that ill wake up from this dream and my mom will be waiting for me to come visist her in the hospital in the afternoon of December 30th. Because she pulled through and held on and got better after they took her off life support.
But then again, I wouldn't have met any of the people I know now if she had. I wouldn't have met the guy I love the most. I wouldn't have helped my best friend leave Nebraska away from her dad. I would prolly still be in the relationship I was in when she past away. Id still be too shy to meet people in my school.
But I'm sometimes thankful for her passing, I've met a super-awesome-but-sometimes-a-jerk-but-always-the-person-I-will-love-forever guy. I wouldn't have these amazing friends. And not to mention I wouldn't have been able to cut my bangs and not get in trouble for it. Dye my hair Burgundy or even get my nose or belly button pierced (and soon lip) pierced.
I miss my mom... but my life wouldn't be the way it is now if she hadn't passed away.
Now the next topic, I have a job I started at Coco Keys Water Resort on June 15th (2011). Its fun... to an extent. Its a bit boreing on slow days. Super tireing on overly busy days. And suuuuper long on open to close days. But I am getting paid by the hour. And I know when I work. I can pick up shifts if people need me too. And I might not really need many days off aslong as I get two days off in a row. To me that's more than enough to get me by. Work four days. Get 2 days off. :) that's enough time for me to relax get back on my feet ready to go. Or to have some alone time with a certain someone that is the same person that I have been talking about for the past like... 7 or 8 months (which is still suprizing to me that I still wanna be with him, though its no surprize that love is the reason that's keeping me going) BUT ANYWAY not my point of this topic xD.. point is I have a job get a couple days off every 4 days and get paind 15 cents more than min wage. :)
Next topic. My first car.
I want a car that's used. And is only $9,998 but a certain person and my dad says my first car shouldn't be no more than $2,000 because I'm going to get it scratched up and dented up... but I figure that either way its going to be a used car... to me I figure that if its a car I actually want and can afford after saving up for it then I wouldn't care if it got a little scratched up or dented... to me I wouldn't care. Its a car I want so then I don't see why I can't just save up my money for the car I want.... BUT because my dad controls my money and bank account I can't spend it the way I want to. So I can't learn from my mistakes cause my dad won't let me make them.... if I spend 9 thousand dollars on a car and its a screw up then so be it. Its a screw up... it was my money... not his...
And because I cannot remember my last topic I am going to end this post ^_^
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