Food Chain, Moods, and Dating

Well for starters,

The school Food chain; Have you ever realized how all through out your school life
(13 years, 14 if you went to pre-school) You will have been at the top of the food chain at leats 3-4 times. In your Elementary grades your at the top, in a way, twice. Once in Kindergarden because you dont care about the older kids, and when your in 4th grade. Then your back at the bottom starting middle school in 5th grade... Then 3yrs later your at the top again in 8th grade, but after that year your at the bottom again for the last time, 9th grade starting High School. Then, again, 3yrs later your a Senior, 12th grade, and you're high at the top and your ruleing the school again for the last time... College doesn't really count because you have a choice to go or not. So have you ever knoticed that? I have a few times before, somtimes i'd even sit here for hours thinking about it.

Secondly moods; I have the worst mood outbursts ever. I know most people know I'm bipolar. So today was very mood swingy or bipolar-y. I went from being sad, to happy, to pissed, to depressed, to excited, to sad again, to happy again, repeat time 5; and now finally just in between lovey dovey and tiredness.... Very up and down day today.. Also when I say I went from this mood to that then repeat I mean it just switched with out warning so literally I'm bipolar. DONT'T ASK OK!?
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And finally Dateing; Another "Have you ever...?" question... Have you ever realized that when a girl wants something they want it the most ESPECIALLY when they CAN'T have it???? I have.... mainly because I'm going through that same sorta stage of a relationship road block... All it takes is one guy(Joel), one girl(Me) and a relationship going on(Me and Xavier) to get it going... I wanna be with Joel, BUT then again what ever me and Xavier have going on could hurt me if i ruin it... I think Xaviers going to be one of those guys that if I lose him I'm going to be heart broken. Even if I'm the one doing the heart breaking. My perfect example of one of those guys is, sad to sort of say, Preston. We stopped dating about 2 maybe 2.5 months ago and I'm still trying to get over him. I, now, barely even see him let alone talk to him.
So my point is that I want to be with Joel, who by the way may not even fucking like me, but I don't want to ruin what ever I already got going on.

Well sad to say, I have to get off. Well I don't have to, but my dad jusyt baught "The Unborn" for our blu-ray so I'm getting off. I'll be on again tomarrow with maybe a slightly shorter blog. Oh and if there are any readers out there; please, if you like my writing, recommend people to visit.
So to all of you, if your reading. Bye for now.
Your Wacky Little Writer,
Star :)