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31.12.10

Happy New Years!!!! 100th Post!!

So ive dedicated this whole post to doing my Top of everything :D
Top Ten Books, Top Movies, Top Songs, Top Shows, Top Guy Celebs, Top Girl Celebs;
Its My Top EVERYTHING!!!!
Note that some of these wont all be from the year 2010.. lol They areMY top ten afterall xD
Also Note im not the Best speller so SORRY if i get names wrong xD

Top Ten Movies of 2010
10. Alice in Wonderland
9. Despicable Me
8. Harry Potter and the Deathly Hollows Part 1
7. Vampires Suck
6. Burlesque
5. Toy Story 3
4. Grown Ups
3. Twilight saga Eclipse
2. Inception
1. Paranormal Activity 2


Top Ten Songs/MV of 2010
10. Fireworks - Katy perry
9. Bad Romance - Lady Gaga
8. Rude Boy - Rihanna
7. Teenage Dream - Kety Perry
6. Break Your Heart - Taio Cruz
5. Just The Way Your Are - Bruno Mars
4. Secrets - One republic
3. Airplanes - B.o.B ft. Hailey Williams
2. Love The Way You Lie - Eminem ft. Rihanna
1. Grenade - Bruno Mars

Top Ten Books Of 2010
10. Dramma Ramma
9. American Born Chinese
8. Life As we Knew It
7. Twilight Saga
6. The Boy Friend List
5. The Boy Book
4. Uglies Series
3. Wicked Loveley
2. Pretty Little Liars Book 1
1. Gamer Girl

Top Tv Shows 0f 2010
7. Phineas and Ferb
6. God Luck Charlie
5. Regular Show
4. iCarly
3. MANswers
2. CSI
1. My Life As Liz

Top Guy Actors of 2010
6. Taylor Launtner
5. Justin Beiber
4. Robert Pattinson
3. Jason Rathbone
2. Leonardo Dicaprio
1. Johnny Depp

Top Girl Actors of 2010
4. Angelina Jolee
3. Dakota Fanning
2. Demi Lovato
1. Kristen Stewart


Top Guy Music Artists of 2010
7. Eminem
6. Taio Cruz
5. Toby keith
4. David Archiletto
3. Robert Pattinson
2. Bruno mars
1. Mike Posner

Top Girl Music Artists of 2010
7. Katy Perry
6. Demi Lovato
5. Selina Gomez
4. Hailey Williams
3. Rihanna
2. Beyonce
1. Vanessa Carlton

Top Bands of 2010
6. Paramore
5. The Beatles
4. Fall out Boys
3. The Servant
2. Artic Monkeys
1. OOMPH!

Top Foods of 2010
8. McDonalds
7. Chiense
6. Spagetti
5. Hamburgurs
4. Tuna Noodle
3. Burittos
2. Ramen
1. Taco casserole

TopPlaces to Visit of 2010
6. Downtown (in any city)
5. Ice Rinks
4. Local Library
3. Close By Antique Stores
2. Friends House
1. Boyfriend/GirlFriend House

Top Places to Go on a Date of 2010
7. Movies
6. Out to Eat
5. A walk in the Park
4. Picnic
3. Walk around Town
2. Ice skating
1. Star Gazing

Top Places Around the World of 2010
8. Spain, Italy
7. Tokyo, Japan
6. London, England
5. Nice, France
4. Hong-Kong, China
3. India
2. Australia
1. PARIS, France

Top Things a guy Can do for his Girl, in 2010
And Years After

11. Make Her something BY HAND
10. Buy Her somethign With Diamonds
9. Buy her Anything
8. Take her to the mall and Browse... Not Buy
7. Take her to a Fancy restaurant on Valentines
6. Write a love letter/poem for her
5. Draw her something (even if they cant draw)
4. Refer every liyric in "Just the Way your Are" - Bruno Mars to be Exactly Tru about her
3. Hold Her When She Cries
2. Buy her a Dozen Roses
1. Be There For Her... Always

Top Things to Do for her Guy, in 2010
And Years After

8. Make Him Something BY HAND
7. Buy him a new watch
6. Take him on a scavenger hunt
5. Buy him a present
4. Open your mind to him
3. Sing him a song
2. Make him a perfect Meal
1. MAKE HIM A SAMMICH (sorry had to put this one for my man)

SO these are the Tops!!!!

Hoope they're Great
Well It is Now 11:48PM on New Years Eve!!!

Ive gone through alot this year...
Looseing my mom last year didnt exactly make 2010 New Years the best. But i over Came it. I Have amazing friends. Though later in the year around july My best friend left to Georgia. I did make and loose a lot of boyfriends over the course of the year and i try to work on that. ANd i have... I practically ended this year, well not with getting my permit. by maintaining the best relationship ive been in. And hope to STAY in. And its the best going all out this year ive had. Though ive Spent Halloween, Thanksgiving, Christmas, and the Anniversary of my mothers passing I wont be with him tonight, stupid job he has... Anyway. THough hes not here i raise my glass (of hot chocolate) to him tonight and would like to thank him. For everything so far in our relationship. Listening to me whine, helping me even when he couldnt do much, holding my close when i started to cry on the 30th. And most of all for clearing up my skepticalism of how a relationship could very well have a happy ending... erm story to be in And im Glad your the reason why i am so very much mor ehappy then i could ever be this year.
I love you hon!

And im goign to End this With a final Top List...


Top Things Star needs to Work on!
5. Critisizing her looks
4. Her Shyness
3. Her Skepticalism (still there but barely hanging on)
2. Her bitchy ness
And
1. Her Open-ness to her Boyfriend

With that! Lets STart the COuntdown!

TEN!

NINE!

EIGHT!

SEVEN!

SIX!!!

FIVE!!!!!

FOUR!!!!!!!!!

THREE!!!!!!!!!

TWO!!!!!

ONE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

HAPPY NEW YEAR READERS!!!!


And HAPPY 100th POST!!!


See you all later, Ive gotta get back to my own little Party!!
;)

Happy new Years Every one!
Yours Truely,
Star :)

Multi Topic >.>

HEY Happy New Years EVE!!! 99th post RIGHT now... Tune iin later round 11pm and the 100th post!!!


Well today i WAS supposed to go get my permit today but the DMV was closed because its new years eve. So on the same day as the new season of Pretty Little Liars premeres. Yes on monday the 3rd.

Sigh.

And i was so looking forward to going all out this year by getting my permit the last day of 2010.

Any way ... as it amazes me this year went by so fast January i was starting my 2nd semester in my Freshman year and lost my mother as well... By summer i had lost my best friend too going to Georgia. By August i was a sophmore in high school By Halloween i met the best guy in my life at the moment. And By new years eve. Ive managed to keep that boy in my life still.

Yesterday was the 30th I was with my bf all day because it was the 1 year anniversary of my moms passing...

I mean last year i didnt just lose my mom i also lost a really close friend i went to her whenever i needed help, there were boy torubles, i needed advice, and i felt more comphortable talking to her then my dad... I mean i was finally going to tell her that i didnt really believe there was a god unless i saw proof. In which i found out wasnt really athiest.. I mean she would have ate up every word i told her. Understood me better then my dad would have. She would have loved my current bf. i alwasy can hear her telling me "Hes so adorable Sara, he is a keeper. Dont lose this one." and norammly boht my parents would then joke about how we need the money, but really they boht would like the boy for who he is... I mean everyday i still struggle to hear what my mom sounds like or her laugh and i still need a picture to fully remember hwo she looks.

I hate hwo the days go by and everyday the image gets fuzzier and fuzzier ... And soon it'll be too blurry to see and to be honest i wont see the point in needing to try to remember because its too far lost...

And last night i was with my bf because i was trying to avoid the point where i break down crying. And around sometime last night i thought that i was ok and able to visit my moms FB page for the first time in a while.. I started the post and then.... Well lets just say i ALMOST lost it, but i still managed to come through and NOT bawl and cry out for my mom like i did.... erm last year... :'(

Anyway... 2010 is almost over and i plan to keep all of me resolutions (AKA goals) and keep them/ achieve them.

Soooooo.... THats it for this post.

LOook in later for the Last post of 2010 also the 100th post!!!!

Well see ya then!!
Your Wacky Little Writer,
Star :D

28.12.10

Permis et piercings

Vendredi, je vais me ... Eh bien je vais aller à la DMV et sera éprouvante pour mon permis de nouveau pour la troisième fois me souhaiter bonne chance.
On friday i am going to get... well i will be going to the DMV and will be trying for my permit again for the THIRD time wish me luck.


Sigh i need to stop useing a translator >..< i need to buy myself a french dictionaire... dictionary.
sigh... J'adore le francais mais je ne sais pas... eermm I adore french, but i dont know much.. SIGH!!!!
Anyway Winter break is over soon and soon ill be back in lame ass schooll. AND I STILL DONT HAVE A DAMN PIERCING LIEK MY DAD PROMISED!!!!
kinda. xD
Well he said id beable to get the piercing during break.. but because i have been baby sitting all FUCKING break and have been out from home all break and im mad because i havnt gotten to do ANYTHING remotly close to what i want to do... well for 8 days i did... but for most of it i spent baby sitting... I hate it...
I mean i love spending time wiht my nephew and watchign him, but i mean what the hell?!

sigh...

i cant wait to get a job and a car,, =/
Which i doubt will ever happen.

but any way.. Friday. Permit.
Some day... Piercing >..<


Anyhow Thats all for now.

Till then

Your Wacky Little Writer,
Star :)

27.12.10

Free of mind and un censored and New Years resolution....

So im about to go and Babysit for my sister... Again... For the third time during my break. Sigh.
I mean i love my sis and all but ITS WINTER BREAK i dont want to baby sit all break. Not to mentioni have a boyfriend and i would liek to see him OUT SIDE of my house and his D:<
Sigh. Any way...

Right now im playing Kigdom hearts (yes i knwo i still havnt beaten the damn game but ive almost have.) I am also watching "My Life As Liz" Have i mentioned that Bryson is so cute... XD But hey I cannot WAIT till season two. I SO Hope LIz and Him get together They ARE sooooooooooooooooooooooooo cute for each other. Not to mention Liz is so stylish... I WANT HER WORDROBE xD

Oh Speaking of her. Her full name is Liz Lee. And i thinkive mentioned before that if i have children i want twins.
If its 2 Girls im naming them. 2 boys my partners naming them (With my approval). and A boy and Girl We each name one. Hahaha Again with my approval. xP
But I Used to want Evangeline and Star... Now. I dont
Weellll the first name Yes i still want it. But now i think Lizlee is a cute name for a girl i mean i dont think ANY ONE has that name And its so cute.
And so ive now made that my new name ITS LOCKED AND LOADED IM NOT CHANGING IT ANY MORE.... unless a new ciuter name comes.

Evangeline Star (last name)
Lizlee Ann (Last name)

Cute huh??


OK new years resolutions:
1. Eat more and better
2. Get out of the house more
3. Get over my shyness
4. Finish Sophmore year and Start Junior year a new me
5. Last all year with my bf ((crosses fingers))
6. Have fun and be happy :O


Thats it for today... Just three more post till the 100th post!!
And just 3 more days till the 30th... =/


Any way till then...

Your Wacky Little Writer,
Star :)

26.12.10

Is it a phase or will it---------- MONKEYS!?!

MONKEYS!!!
LOL I LOVE THEM!!!!
AND I hope they are never goen from me i have gone through so many of these phases of likeing animals that its rare to se eme interested in a animal longer then a school year.... AKA my monkey phase xD
ANYWAY
im going to design monkey pajamas (THAT ARNT FOOTY)
and i monkey costume :D xD
I might be a bit embarased to wear it though.!
xD
Oh wells
OH i want everything monkey now... Except my rroom Thats stil going to be Paris, France themed. xD
BTW My sister got me a shirt that said I LOVE PARIS :D
I love my sister
OK off topic *slaps self* BAD STAR BAD!!!
xD
Im a bit hyper because my bf decided nto to take his candy home with him so i am now SUPER CHOCOLATE high xD

ANYWAY Monkeys!
I want one. As, A Pet!
YOu know one of those small monkeys that you see in movies liek the one in the little rascals?
Yeah THAAT!

OR the monkey from CLoudy With the Chance of meatballs!
STEVE IS SO CUTE!




I MEAN LOOK AT HIM YOU CANNOT DENY I FACE LIKE THAT!!!!!



YOu can?
Well ok fine then i CANT xD

Thats it these two recent post or doen for today See ya again tomarrow! And New years EVE! :D

26th after christmas

SO i hope every ones christmas (or wat ever holiday) was a great one. I knwo this was the first year ive ever freaked out on getting peopel presents. >..<
I hope this wont be a repeat next year because i really dont like buying things unless its to make the damn presents.
ANYWAY

GUESS WHAT! >D
I
GOT
A
MONKEY
HAT!
:D

My boyfriend Made me it :) I AM SO HAPPY NOw that I HAVE A MONEY HAT!!!
And i am designing or drawing a monkey costume for him to make for me :P
Im weird i know. O.O I SHOULD Design Monkey pajamas for him to make!!!
(THAT ARNT FOOTY PAJAMAS HON!)
Thats a long story...

Anyway he also got me this art set? I think thats what it says on the box. butit has acrylic paints, an aprin to keep nice an cleen, a palete knife (to mix paints), uhmmm a carying bag...
All this cool stuff.

But im so bad at painting nice things that i highly doubt ill ever use it... I dont want to waste the paint on a painting that wont turn out great. =/
I feel bad now... ='/

BUT COMPARED TO HIS GIFTS my gift was lousy....

AND he practically already knew what his gift was gonna say since he read my blogs :P
lol
Remember my "Unamed Poem" post :D hahaha yeah that was coordnated with each page each paragraph. :)

So techinically you already knew what your gift said hon. :D

ANYWAY from family i god 2 pairs of skinny jeans. 3 Shirts, hot topic MUSIC gift card, 2 games ( one of which i wont eve rplay), and The Twilight Saga Eclipse blue ray + dvd :D
uhm and 2 make up kits.. And they're form Eyes Lips and Face ELF for short. ELF!!! -_-'''
Another reason for my bf to make fun of how short i am.
ANY HOW
I am now being a bored ass wondering what to blogg about for my 100th post.
AND
ive been Brain missing all day D<

So i told my dad i wanted rumm lessons BUT that best be saved for another time and Day :D xD

24.12.10

Whyyyyyy?

So here's the thing. There's this guy that I havnt talked to for a good 3-4 months now... Otu of no where he came back and we started talking like that gap never even happened... But then I told him something I had been wanting to tell him for a long time ><'' I had told him that I stoped talking to him because he had gotten a gf abd I was going to ask him out to another date, and was hisfault me and him never gitthe chance and that now was too late due to the fact I had a bf and I thought he forgot about me.

He didn't catch that end part at all cause that's when he told me "well I'm single I have been for three months now" I smiled at the fact he completely blew over what I had told him then sighed and told him, "I'm not. I havnt been for the past month and 3weeks." (Yes I keep track) and weelll he then finially admitted it to being his fault. But then he said he still liked me UGH!! Why is it that I get this attention when I'm taken and NOT when I'm single grrrr!

I told him that I might not be single for a while or any time soon. He said he can wait. I replied saying "what if it takes months? Years? Decaades? Or life times?" He said hed be there waiting for me. I had asked him "so you'll wait practically forever for some one who may never be single again?" And he said yes... YES!!! >< Am I really that kind and careing and special???

Sigh.

well because of this I've been thinking as nice as it is for me to have some one waiting for me... I can't afford any more screw ups I Love my boyfriend and I really would never ever want to lose him so though its sweet to have this guy here for me, he is no more then a friend to me now and as much as it may pain that guy to hear that but my boyfriend is my main priority and he's mine and I hope to be with him for as long as I can manage NOT to screw up..
But here's a question I'd like to ask my bf now;

If I had to go someplace for a while and I didn't know when I'd be back would YOU wait months or years or decades or life times for me to come back?? Even if you knew it was a slim to none chance that I would?

(Sigh. This is sad to say but it think I might know your answer already...)

But I guess that's a question for all couples to ponder this holiday...

Have a merry christmas and happy holidays.. No post tomarrow.

Your Elf Writer,
Star :|

93 (94 after this one) post down 7 (8) to go.. >..>

SO! The title has nothing to do with what i wanna blogg about xD
So, it turns out that theres a good chance i have a disease that will go away in a few months or so but will stay in my system for, i think my old english teacher said, 6 to a year... Bright side i can only get it once.
Stupid jerk... I love you though.

SO normally i wouldn't confess this unless ive confessed it to some one in person first, but i figure it'd be one of my christmas presents to my bf.
So we were at his friends house right? His friend asked if i was in love. i said no.
And my bf threw a fit...
Because. Well i am in love, and i do admitt it.. To all of you.
I, Star, do here by admitt that i am in love with my boyfriend... who will always remain unknown to my readers...
lol SO there Mr. Get upset. I admitted it to millions of people who could be reading my blogs and i couldn't and/or wouldnt know about it.
In a sense its obvious i would fall for him this early in the relationship.. Haha but i cant help it... Old fashioned people are so sexy xD
But seriously... Don't You Antagonize Me WOMAN! xD

Ok in other news ITS CHRISTMAS EVE!!!!! >< I feel lame. I Made my bf only one thing an di saw 2 presents under his little tree And ive been going crazy as to what to get him else or what to make him... And i cannot openly say what ive got him on my blog because even if he jokes about opening his present i know he hasnt yet... AND I SWEAR IF YOU ARGUE WITH ME ON THAT MR! I WILL TAKE DOWN YOUR STOCKING xD
O.o
But for real i want to feel like i can afford things for him or be able to make things for him... but it sucks when i can only think of making him ONE thing AND its the thing ive already wrapped and am already giving to him...

Well i have more ot rant on but because my bf is taking me to lunch I gotta go!! ;D

Well Have a great Christmas eve Ill post another After this.
Happy Holidays! :D

Your Wacky Little Writer,
Star :)

22.12.10

This Weekend / Baby sitting.

SO im home now. I was hanging with my bf all weekend then from sunday to today i was at my sisters right? I posted liek 5 new posts on here with her blackberry. In which is super easy to type on... Not easy to get all the words correct BUT super easy xD.

Now im here. At home trying to think of soemthing to do.. I either.
DO laugndry (in which i SUPERLY DUPERLY need to do)
Clean my room. YES IM STILL NEEDING TO CLEAN MY ROOM I NEVER FINISHED!
Make the rest of my presents.
and
Pack so im ready to go back to school in the 4th.
Sigh.
This sucks.


I NEED A REALL JOB! SO this way i can never need to clean my room very much. And i can opefully go to bed on time rather then stay up til like 1am doing nothing.


But anyway back to this weekend what happened was... Well nothing really. XD
But its awesome baby sitting Camryn slept the whole time xD and i played the wii lol
my bf lettme borrow it. its awesome Though Im a natural at being a girl version of my half brother Josh. xDDD
He gets so into the game that he can get pretty weird and scary O.o
I get so into the game that i start swearing at the damn thing XDDD

But before i can even play it at home i have to clean my room. And find a plac to set it. And also i need to break in this new game my bf gave me.

Have i mentions the sims 3 yet? Yeah my bf has the game GAWD so much fun xD
Though i over exxagerated on my house >.> 5 stories high... When i get to play it again im going to tear it down and make a new and more creative one lol
Something to suit my music playing bf (in the game) and my artistic owner of half the city self :D

lol xD


AnYwAy thats all for this post i might have another up later... Mayber... Probably not xDDD

anyway ill write another before christmas eve. :D

Your Wacky Little Writer,
Star :)

MULTITOPIC PoSt

So I havnnt had a multitopic post ina while. One that was on purpose any way.

So why I chose this night of all nights to make an multitopic post, beats me but this blogg needs one maybe I should make these posting goals more often lol !!! XD I mean if it wasn't for me wanting to do my 100th post thing my new years eve then I think I'd still be dodging my posting lol I mean there still will be times when I practically forget about my raeders but can you blame me I mean I'm still a teen! I have a life... Now. Btu I apologize from the past. And for future incompetants to remember to post.

Hmmm.. Have I toild you readers why I started a blog in the first place? No?! Wow this is embarrasing almost a years past and no one knows why Star needs a blog in the first place... Well,
as most of you already know its almost the 30th of dec. And every one SHOULD know what happened last year that day (new raeders basically short hand version is my mom passed that day last year <2009>more info in other posts) and well following months most my friends should be able to tell you how more quiet I've become more distant and wow more shut in, I tend to keep problems and crying to myslef,its rare to see me venting to friends or crying infront of anyone and when I doi cry I try to hide it or I run out of the rooom.. So friends feel special if I ever cry in front of you it means I trust you with morethen my whole haert can stand to trust but any way I think I told you all io needed something to rant to to get bottled things out? Well sorta its more of my wayof saying I need a way to show people I want people to know Star is still here just shut out this year thnks to the jerk called cancer.

Well that is a raeson for these blogs.

So lately iverealized half the things or “slang“ you can call it tht I use comes from the books I raed you'll find that lately ill say something like “bubbly“ or “bogus“ or “lazy-face“ or “brain-missing“ or “fashion missing“ its all from this one book lol NO I'm not saying whatbook figureit out your slef raeding isfun for those who have nothing but time on their hands.

So lately I've been raeding a lot. You've heard of people who eat when they're bored? Well I read when I'm bired and since I'm a pretty fast raeder I can get through parts of books within an houror so, just dont ask me what went on 'cause explaning thibgs complicates the whole book wanna know what happened fine a book and raed lol

Typos used to be the sign of me typing too fast now for these past few post its a sign of small keys XD

Wii, my bf lettme borrow his wii system and a couple games yes 2 games lol so far I've played them both but only one game the most. Its called super mario galaxy such a good game so addicting though hahahaha I've almost beaten the game... I have too much time in hand
Loi

Anyway that's all foir this post and for tonight at all!!!

Your Wacky Little Writer,
Star ;)

Stars 12 days of christmas

Oooon the 1st day of christmas my truelove gave to me a nose ring which is super cooool!

Onn the 2nd day of christmas my truelove gave to me two diamond earings and a nose ring which is super coool!

Ooon the third day of christmas my truelove gave to me three games to play, two diamond earings, and a nose ring which is super coool!

Ooonnnn the forth day of christmas my truelove gave to me four mistle toes, three games to play, two diamond earings, and a nose ring which is super cooooool!

Oon the fifth day if christmas my truelove gave to me five PS3's, four mistle toes, three games to play, two diamond earings and a nose ring which is super cooool!

On the 6th day of christmas my truelove gave to me. Six hot chocolates so warming, five PS3's, four mistle toes, three games to play, two diamond earings and a nose rings which is super cooool!

On the 7th day oif christmas my truelove gave to me. Seven special kisses,six hot chocolates so warming, five PS3's, four mistle toes, three games to play,two diamond earings, and a nose rings which is super cooool!

Onnnn the 8th day of christmas my truelove gave to me. Eight funny jokes, seven special kisses, six hot chocolates so warming, five PS3's, four mistle toes, three games to play, two diamond earings, and a nose ring which is super coooool!

On the 9th day of christmas my truelove gave to me. Nine songs a chiming, eight funny jokes, seven special kisses, six hot chocolates so warming,five PS3's, four mistle toes, three games to play, two diamond earings and a nose ring which is super cooool!!!

On the 10th day of christmas my truelove gave to me. Ten roses a blooming, nine songs a chiming, eight funny jokes, seven special kisses, six hot chococlates so warming, five PS3's, four mistle toes, three games to play, two diamond esrings, and a nose ring which is super coool!

Oooon the 11th day of christmas my truelove gave to me, eleven ipods, ten roses a blooming, nine songs a chiming, eight funny jokes, seven special kisses,six hot chocolates so warming, five PS3's, four mistle toes, three games to play, two diamond earings, and a nose ring which is super cooooool!!!!

AANNDD OoOOOOOOONnnnnnn the 12th day if christmas mytruelove gave to me, twelve wedding rings, 11 ipods, 10 roses a blooming, 9 songs a chiming, 8 funny jokes, 7 special kisses,6 hot chocolates so warming, 5 PS3's, 4 mistle toes, 3 games to play,2 diamond earings and a nose ring which is super cooool!!

And all through out those days my true love gave me a most special gift of all...

Him.


Happy Holidays!

-Star-

so the one thing i hate most around the holidays is...

When you get used to not expecting a million present under the tree any more or when you don't expect anything that year you don't even think of what to ask for christmas (or what ever holiday other people celebrate) then next thing you knoiw everyone is coming up to yiu and asking “oh hey what do you want for (insert hoiliday here)“ its irritating because they expect you to be ready for this stuff but when your dad can barely afford food you realize you shouldn't worry about these things. Or the fact that my family lives on a one paycheck thing now. My dad is, if I havnt already mention in previous posts, a widowed father taking care of his 15 year old sophmore in HS daughter and his 18 year old graduate from HS (who btw needs to find his own place to live and stop expecting my dad to support him the rest his life) I mean life is no joke since he thinks no one would ever want to date him since he's almost 50y/o
My dads a nice, funny, interesting guy but he needs a push now and then to get him going. he doesn't realize that just because he's past his good old days and hadn't dated for a good 15years before he met my mom and hasn't dated since they got married or gotten together or what ever doesn't mean he can't try to find someone who's ready to settle down, help him out I know it isn't easy when he doesn't have a good paying job anymore but still he's just like evry other guy too stubborn to ask for any help...

Ok I got off subject, my whole point is that it annoys me when for the past couple years knowing I wasn't gonna get any presents for christmas I don't really expect peopple in my family to ask what I want. Especially since my dad got fired from Harrahs Casino (over a stupid reason) and my mom got cancer.

I've also realized for only 15 my life is more dramatic then a soap opera.. Lol

That's all for this post
Only a few more to go >>

Your Wacky Little Writer,
Star :]

1 down 6 more to go

So I have 6 more post to POST before I'm all caught up jeez I should have blogged a bit more this weekend rather then played the sims and sleep and watch tv and text >> scratch that last one I'm always txting when I blogg hell I'm txting right now... How that work you ask since I'm useing a phone to blog? Easy I'm TEXTING on mine and BLOGGING on my sisters xD not that hard to figure out lol I mean I did mention useing my sisters fone didn't I?

Any way no biggy no sweat itsnot that hard to pull a threat XD don't ask I'm inna very rhymie mood... I think its because I'm suppose to be with my nephew a baby sitting then again its like 1am and him and my sister are asleep hence how my sisters doesn't know about me useing her phone to blog if she asks tomarrow ima just say I was chattin on FB late at night >> trust me my weirdos come to chat at night now during the day.

Any way ima sum that up for this post but don't worry ima post another here soon...

Your Wacky Little Writer,
Star :P

blogging onna blackberry is harder then you think... owwwweey

So right now I'm at my sisters laying in bed useing her blackberry to write this. Seesh may I say my wrists will be hurting after a few posr see her fone is about the size of a small golfball that's been flattened and her keys onnit are the size if about two grains of rice put side by side ued abd flattened... Mama mia my wrists hurt. You see crystal, my sister told me that shed get her naighber to loan me his laptop so I could blog and she wouldn't have to take me home... Can you guess the ending to that story?

Any way I'm behind on my blogger sched. My100th post was supposed to be this following friday but that's kinda hard when my 90th post WAS supposed to be. On monday but since I didn't kniow I could blogg from my sisters fone I got behind. Since were back. On this subject, I might have more typos now since its a bit harder to type on her phone. Did I mention she doesn't know I'm useing her phone to do this >> lol any way... I'm a few to 6 posts behind>~< oh geez this is gonna be a long night..

Your Wacky Little Writer,
Star :/

14.12.10

Untitled (still thinking of a title of this 'poem' hahaha)

"When I told you that my life was hell before I met you, I wasn't just saying that.
It was true.

Last year I had it all. My mom was starting to look better, almost healthy again, to be in fact...
My best friend and I saw each other as much as I could possibly could find time to see her...

Then things went wrong.... My mom passed away barely half-way through my first year in high school.. Then just when I thought things were getting better again... My best friend moves to Georgia. Now. All I have is pictures of my mom and faint rememberance of her. And a few reassureing notes that my best friend will be coming back again soon...

I felt so alone, even if I had new friends to look forward to seeing through the year. Knowing that I wont have to dread through the day trying to blend into the walls. Thats what I felt like doing... Again...

Ever since my mom passed away my brother has done everything to turn the heads towards him. Though it doesnt seem that way, it's very hard to get my dads attention most of the time.

I Truely thought my life was nothing, but then... You crept up behind me....

Covered my eyes and made me guess who... With every reassuring thouch, kiss, hug...
I knew...

From the first time we hung out that my greying world would be full of colors and bright whenever I was with you... and in your arms... <3 "

Tell me what you think? In a comment below!?

Happy Holidays everyone. Keep reading my posts. Im going all out for the end of the year!
100th Post here i come ;)

Read the next tomarrow.

Your Wacky Little Writer,
Star :)

13.12.10

These things.. Teenage... Please dont.....

If I could say what I want to say
I'd say I wanna blow you... away
Be with you every nightAm I squeezing you too tight
If I could say what I want to see
I want to see you go down
On one knee
Marry me today
Guess, I’m wishing my life away
With these things I’ll never say

It don’t do me any good
It’s just a waste of time
What use is it to you
What’s on my mind
If ain’t coming out
We’re not going anywhere
So why can’t I just tell you that I care

T'was The Night Before... My New Life.

Twas the Night before Christmas Poem
(REMIX)

Twas the night before her new life, when all through the house
Not a creature was stirring, not even herself.
The laugndry was washed and hung with care,
In hopes that St Nicholas soon would be there.

The pets were nestled all snug in their beds,
While visions of dog bones and kat nip danced in their heads.
And her husband in his Pj's, and her with a book in her lap,
She had just settled herrself down for a long nights nap.

When out on the lawn there arose such a clatter,
She sat up in her bed to hear what was the matter.
Away she crept to the window she snuck like a mouse,
Opened the shutters and looked around the house.

The moon shining brightly showing off the new-fallen snow,
And the lust of the night with the wind below.
When to her sight, but what should appear?
But a little small elf and a sleigh with eight mini reindeer.

The little trinket holding a old driver, and within a bling so quick,
She knew in a moment it must be St Nick.
More feirce the winds the movements they came,
The trinket came to life and St Nick shouted all by their name!

"Now Dasher! now, Dancer! now, Prancer and Vixen!
On, Comet! On, Cupid! on, on Donner and Blitzen!
To the top of the porch! to the top of the wall!
Now dash away! Dash away! Dash away all!"

She looked with astonishment she blinked away tears to see as he flew away in a fly
When he met with an obstacle out the window, to mount to the sky.
So up to the house-top the trinket had flew,
With a sleigh full of joys, and St Nicholas too.

And then, in a moment, she heard on the roof
The prancing and pawing of each little hoof.
She drew in her head, and had turned around,
Down the chimney St Nicholas came with a bound.

He was dressed all in fur, from his head to his foot,
And his clothes were all tarnished with ashes and soot.
A bundle of wonders he had flung on his back,
And he looked like a peddler, just opening his pack.

His eyes-how they twinkled! His dimples how merry!
His cheeks were like roses, his nose like a cherry!
His little mouth was drawn up like a bow,
And the beard at his chin was as white as the snow.

The long pipe he held tight in his teeth,
And the smoke it encircled his head like a wreath.
He had a broad face and a little round belly,
That shook when he laughed, like a bowlful of jelly!

He was chubby and plump, a right jolly old elf,
And she laughed when she saw him, in spite of her old self!
A wink of his eye and a twist of his head,
Soon gave her to know she had nothing to dread.

He spoke not a word, but went straight to his work,
And filled the whole room with life and color, then turned with a jerk.
And laying his finger aside of his nose,
And giving a nod, up the chimney he rose!

He sprang to his sleigh, to his team gave a holler
And up they all flew like the dog off the coller.
But she heard him exclaim, as he drove out of sight,
"Have great life to all, and to all a good-night!"

Then there in a flash, and within' a wink
She had seen him dissapear, she had never to think.
There in her hand some thing lay with a small little twinkle,
The trinket with old St Nick his eyes so bright he never had a flaw not even a wrinkle.

Her husband arose as the sun came up, to know that within a week
He wraped his arms around her and kissed her on the cheek.
They went down stairs to see the presents all wrapped and tucked under the tree,
Neither admtted to run to the store to buy gifts in a flee.

She knew in that instant that life had began
She and her husband went our for a walk as her pets flew an ran.
Life was simply perfect with the start of a new begining, with a loudly band.
His fingers intertwined with her she knew there could be nothing bad to happen with him in her hand.


Hahahahaha So some of the story isn't all changed but i like this new version. It suites me, :)
Anyway one last post for the night coming right up..

Your Wacky Little Writer,
Star :)

Baby sitting

So ive had a baby sitting gig that pays for once the past 5months now...
$20 dollars. Great no?
Yeah hahaha pretty damn great.
I baby sat my Nephew. Camryn. (cam for short)
Friday wasnt all that hard hahahaha it was already pretty late and was asleep most the time. And My bf came over for a bit after work... (he needs to do so more often) And then left before my sister did for work Saturday. Lol YES SHE KNEW HE WAS OVER!!! xD im not that naughty ;)

xP

Anyway Saturday was a huge storm. It had snowed over night so wasnt that bad. >..<
Until around like noon >..< The winds picked up and then got very feirce and strong. O.o
Scary thing happened i was practically watching out side all day and around night time th ewinds picked up so feircly that it shook a tree so hard that the branched were shaking almost ready to break off. But instead at the winds wound down the small easy to break off branches fell off. I was like!!
O..O
O..e
WTF!
HOLY SHIT!
OMG
:O

LOL
xD

Anyway then my sister came home and i passed out around midnight. Wakign up to my brother calling at 2am... Thats story i rather not tell.
Well then i woke up around 9am. THe same time My bf told me he was going to work. Funny thing. My sister was off to work then too. xD
Anyway i was playing with cam all morning then around 11am-2pm he passed out (lazy ass) so i did my chemistry reveiw sheet. And strated texting an old friend. :)
Around 2:30pm i texted my bf i think. We talked for an hour or so. Then we stopped
So at this point im doing chem reveiw and then im coloring my bfs present. Hahaha (cause he reads my blog i cant say what his present is XD)
Then my sister can home and i stopped. At Chinese food. Then came home. un packed my things. AND passed out hahahahahaha

Two more post coming.
Your Wacky Little Writer,
Star :)

Christmas Gifts

So all of my pottery gifts (except one) are finished.

I have about NINE bracelets to make. >..>

And One special spresent ive been working on all weekend. And today. It should!!! Be finished by this.... Christmas. Hahahaha OLIVE OIL HON! :D xD
(no one should understand that xP)

Its amazing to know how much fun maing simple pottery christmas gifts are. Though hahaha next year im starting the first week of school xD
so i can plan out the gifts better and they can be mor ecreative. And maybe more usefull for those who get the tiles lol xD

Well thats all for this post.
A few more coming up dont forget to search for them.

Your Wacky Little Writer,
Star :)

9.12.10

New FB Profile!?

Ok Ill admitt at first when i clicked the "Get The New Profile Now" I regrestted it right away i was like.. "Shit i did the wrong thing!" Then i realized how cool it looked.
i mean all the info was right there! And the post and wall posts was alkl there ont he same page. They show all the info that you still want to share and what you dont want to share is still secret.

Its so cool. Cause now, instead of just a name people get Pictures now too!
Like on the left side bar under my pic it says:
IN A RELATIONSHIP WITH:
(Picture) (name)

FAMILY:
(picture) (Name)(relationship to me)

other family members

FRIENDS:
(Picture)(name)


Ok so i looked again and noticed that under My picture there it says:
"Wall"
"Info"
"Photos"
etc.

Its a cool new profile layout. i like it. :D A LOT
haha

Oh and above that all every one sees EXACTLY
What i want them to see. My home town, who im dating, the languages i speak, bith town, birth day, and school :D Though only friends can see that people have to add me to see anythign else lol xP

Not to mention the News Feed CHanges as well Gosh this is SO cool!!! :D

Anyway thats all for this post :)

Your Wacky Little Writer,
Star :)

8.12.10

17 days and counting

Its SEVENTEEN days until christmas.
and NINE until i have to hand out Presents next week O.O
Dx thats too short a time to finish!!!!
D: im never going to finish the very few i NEED to finish before next week...
Well Glazing can happen next week BUT i need then ALL finished and wrapped by next Wednsday.
Sigh.
Christmas this year is stressfull so many new friends. So many new things ot make.
So many presents to give,
So many happy faces to come to eveyr morning.

So many reassuring faces i love to see eah and every day. :)

Anyhow. Not to mention i have gifts i still need to send out by mail to others;
Bff Kayla. BFF(guy) Kyle. Brother and Sister-IN-law Josh & Heaven. Friend (and the famous Ex) Xavier. Thats all. OH! And my PenPal Jamie.

Well thats all ... For my 80TH POST!!! :D

XD

Your Wacky Little writer,
Star :)



[90th post by next monday after next]

Paris, France

So im trying to make my romo into a decor of Paris, France right?

That
Will
Never
In
My
Life-time
Happen

Because im poor and i cannot for the sake of me make anything that cool. >P

Especially when it comes ot my room. Maybe i should wait until i move into an appartment. That way ill have more room and maybe it'll look better? Maybe when im out of college that way i can possibly get a good job and afford these things. Maybe visit Paris Its self to but things for it?
Oh lala! Maybe i can get some tips from my french teacher, hahaha.
She'll think im crazy.. Asking her decor advice lol
But hey this chick needs all the help she can get.
Also i still need to raise about $3,592 dollars to go to france PLUS $1000 for spending money. ://


Im never gonna get there at this point of time. Never. Im too poor and im too old to go door to door selling treats and IM way too young still to get a actual promising job. =//

ANYWAY befor ei bum this post out as well ill get cracking on the last post of the night :D

Your Wacky Little Writer,
Star :))

No PDA! If i can't do it then you CANT!

So lately my school symptons have been getting worse by the day.
Sigh.
I dont think ill ever get used to not hugging my bf or kissing him quickly as i run to class. Or hold his hand when im right next to him or walking with him.

No. I wont. Sigh...

But its harder and harder each day for me to go through with out any of that. :/
I mean really... And seriously...
If i see one more couple hugging, giving a quick kiss before they each go to class, or holding hands while they walk with eachother or standing next to each other. I might just snap their head off. -_-;;
It gets annoying, expecially when i CANT do it...
Well i could... BUT i rather not put that argument down on the table. Especially since my bf reads these blogs. Hahahahaha Ill get a earful when he reads this one.

But hey, can you blame me? Im used to a hug in the halls. A quick kiss before he leaves to his class. Or when we're goign the same way he grabs my hand... Well the others did.

I mean i dont care much for the past any more. Those guys are ntohing compared to how this one is.. Its just in school it agrivates me. Im extremely elated when i do get a hug though...


Its like a place of work he says... -_-;; ITS SCHOOL! Thats why people GO to school.. especially when there bf or gf go to the same school. I mean id understand more if he went to another school or he was already graduated.

ANYWAY.. I guess i shouldnt worry to much. I mean he does all of that when im with him... AFTER school.. >..< except the kisses arn't quick ones hahahaha which is good. But it'd be nice. lol


Thats it for this post.

Signed:
Your Wacky little Writer,
Star :)

When Christmas comes to town

La, la, la, la.....

I'm wishing on a star
And trying to believe
That even though it's far
He'll find me Christmas Eve

I guess that Santa's busy
Cause he's never come around
I think of him
When Christmas Comes to Town

The best time of the year
When everyone comes home
With all this Christmas cheer
It's hard to be alone

Putting up the Christmas tree
With friends who come around
It's so much fun
When Christmas Comes to Town

Presents for the children
Wrapped in red and green
All the things I've heard about
But never really seen

No one will be sleeping on
The night of Christmas Eve
Hoping Santa's on his way

[Repeat previous two paragraphs]

When Santa's sleigh bells ring
I listen all around
The herald angels sing
I never hear a sound

When all the dreams of children
Once lost will all be found
That's all I want
When Christmas Comes to Town

That's all I want
When Christmas Comes to Town

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=b3n5iCQoVl0&feature=related

This is from The Polar Express movie soundtrack/movie. Its my favorite song. Its something i'd sing along with the movie when me and my mom would watch it on either "25 days of Christmas" on ABC family ch 40 or "Disney Channel" (48) She always told me i had a beautiful voice. Especially when i sang... Now its just plain hard for me to sing with or to any thing. In front of any one.

But i love this song. Its my favorite.

Thats all i wanted to say in this post.
There will be 3 more any way ;)

Your Wacky Little Writer,
Star :)

7.12.10

So... he can drive me CRAZY

Yes, i mean my boyfriend.
He.
Can.
Drive.
Me.
Crazy.

I mean seriously. He has me guessing time and time again about what hes doing, but the odd thing is that its not that suspicious type guessing its the fun but hair pulling type guessing.
Take earlier for example, asks me a series of questions between to things and told me to choose. And so i did. I was a good girl and did what i was told. LOL
He on the other hand. When i had asked him why or what he was doing he said, "Oh, nothing." so i went grrr. He said that ill find out soon. When i asked when is soon he says, "When its white ont he ground."
Sigh. Can he be any more confuseing.
But, i love it. Makes things interesting.
Even if hes, just so weird. HAHA

I have noticed that i was very skeptical about this relationship at the beginning. Now. I could really care less about what happens in two months or any time. Or wheather i should worry if he'll be just useing me or toss me aside once hes done with me... i dont care anymore.
I just love spending time with him. Makeing him happy and trying my hardest to appreciate everything he does for me. Not to mention to show it.

Though i feel that guilt in my stomache. When... Well when he spends so much money when we're together.
Or when i make him late to work.
Or when he gets in troouble.
Or hes so exhausted he makes it out to almost be able to be on drugs xP

So any how... He is almost...
How do you explain it ??
Its one of those opposites together type situations.
He makes me crazy but that crazyness draws me in. :)

Thats it for this post.

Your Wacky Little Writer,
Star :)

6.12.10

Chrismas Wish List

So all i want for christmas would be a long list lol but lets get a shot at this shall we?

All i want for christmas is:

1. An Ipod touch
2. An XBOX 360
3. A PS3
4. Games for both PS3 and XBOX 360
5. An new phone
6. A new camera
7. A job (XD)
8. My OWN laptop.
9. $3,800 dollars
10. An extra $1000 for spending money.
11. More games for my DS lite and PS2
12. A bigger room.
13. A (this is going to sound dorky but,) sewing machine
14. The Twilight Saga: Eclipse on DVD
15. An Ipad Touch
16. An Iphone Touch
17. The latest fashion for teens from France :D
18. Some new clothes that’s I’d actually like.
19. Hot topic gift cards or that +1 card thing they have
20. This really cute Skull dress from HT (about 34-45 bucks xS)
21. An any time use round trip ticket to any place in the country (to visit some friends that has moved recently)
22. An eisel and some canvases and about an all I can paint with paints and brushes.
23. Some new arts a craft things I’d like
24. Any thing to relate to France or Paris.
This list will go on for ever if I don’t stop now. AND yes I know most of these are very unlikley I’d get hahaha But hey a girl can wish.

Pottery/ Room Decor

So i know ive told you, my readers, about my little gifts im making. Like 8 tiles. 3 "sushi" dishes. 3 Jewlery boxes. ect.
Well guess what!?
Next semester as my final project im going to try and make a (almost) waist high Eiffel Tower, er, though i dont know where ima put this fabulous sculptor. BUT i will Find some place. Though i am going to make my room into a paris themed room. hahahaha.
I Love paris, by the way if you didnt know. I plan to move to paris france when im older actually. Haha.

Sigh.

In a way i cant wait to grad, but i still want these last 2 1/2 years to last.

ANYWAY. Im not only making a (almost) waist high Eifel tower im also making a Jar type box thing *you can call it* with the eifel tower the words paris on it and a postal stamp type thing on it.
Uhm Also a jelery box with the words paris on it. A few wall tiles. A few dishes. Then the rest of the room decor im making out of cloth or other handy man crafts things lol.

Anyway twis all for this post. Hahaha. Twis.

Your Wacky Little Writer,
Star :)

Its begining to look a lot like Christmas.

So its almost christmas time and well aside from my mom NOT being here and all. Im very happy and excited for it.
Though it'll be a year with out presents again. My dad being a widowed father taking care of two (should be one) children still is stressfull. You see if my dad only had to take care of me id probably get gifts this year. Get things i need. Live a normal life as a only child in the house again.
Anyhow. My tradition will be ever lasting still this year haha.
Finals week is next week then Winter break will happen. :P
Every finals week i make cookies for my teachers and On Finals Day i hand out 2 cookies for each teacher thats 16 cookies and that should be about 32 cookies to make, the extra 16 are for friends hahaha.
Oh and im making cupcakes for the special friends haha.

Sigh.

I cannot beleive christmas is almost here thought. Christmas of my sophmore year. Christmas with my senior boyfriend... If he'll be here... (especially for the 30th)
Anyway. I mean is its almost christmas and i might nto have any one to spend it with.
Not to mention i have like 40 gifts to make and like a big christmas present to make for my bf. :/

Life is so cruel.

--Star

Sophmore Near Junoir.

Dx
No fair. The end is coming too fast. :/
I don't want to graduate just yet. High School just began for me. I finially gained friends and my life is.... on the track to being normal.... kinda.
I mean aside from my mom passing away in the middle of my freshman year, my best friend moving to Georgia for reasons i cannot explain over the internet. Or to any one. Not even my boyfriend (sorry hon).
Anyway. Living from Kindergarden to eighth grade with our any realy true friends except for one or two here or there.
THEN freshman year starts and well no. 9th grade didnt event start when i started making friends or even making a friend. It was awesome. No one saw me as a slut or a whore or anything. No one knew me. I could be me. The real me not some one that everyone had spread the rumors about. It made me mad the way i was treated.

Oh uhm. Hence the reason why im so loud and hyper almost all the time. The reason why i tend to get used to others so fast the reason why im some what so trusting.

ANYWAY.
Meeting new friends and still meeting new people its just a shock that i have only 2 1/2 years left till graduation. 2 1/2 years left till no more High school. 2 1/2 years until the real world sets in. 2 1/2 years until im free to roam with out rules. 2 1/2 years until i wont see any of my friends again.
2 1/2 years until... until... Im an adult. Until i start being the real world meeting new people and trying to fight new drama.

Omg! Im going to die or drown in tears on graduation day Ima like need an back up make up kit 3 packets of those easy to carry around tissues and like $200 to celebrate. Now... Can i please go die? I mean not literally but i really DONT want to graduate but i really dont want to stay in HS longer than i need to. Sigh.
Some one please tell me i wont end up like my brother...


Ok no scratch that... I will NEVER end up as my brother. Im smarter and way more morally ethnic about everything... ALMOST everything. I mean im still a teen people. C'mon. xD

Anyhow. Its just scary i mean, 2 1/2 years. Two. AND. A Half. YEARS! Left until.
Until Im free.
Well thats all for this post.

Signing off.
Your Almost out of HS Writer,
Star :)

1.12.10

So what i have planned this week and next

This week i have planned id to finish all projects and get them fired over the weekend. Clean my room;
this includes:
-Sweeping
-Vacumming
-Organizing
-etc.
Go through my clothes and figure out if i have clothes to give away or not.
DO ALL MY HOMEWORK!!! (ofcourse)

Next week Im stainging all my projects then glazing them. And hopefully by The finals week they'll be all done and i can take them home wrap them up and give them out by Friday before christmas. :))

Tthats really all i have planned for next week xD


YOur Wacky Little Writer,
Star :))

When commenting about my blog.

Ok im sorry i have to post this in and AS one of my blogs but im tired of it. Please if you HAVE a comment for one of my blogs please comment in the comment boxes UNDER the BLOG. Not on the link i post in FB.

Its annoying when i post up more then one blog and i might not know which one your talking about. Because normally my blogs have three or four topics at once. So please for my sake comment in the comment boxes UNDER the BLOG not on the link i post in FB.

Please and thank you.


Your Wacky Little Writer,
Star :)

Comic book and Chaptwer Book

My comic book is going along well. :)
Its basically what my friend called a music video on paper. :P
Ever heard of the song "If We Ever Meet Again" by Timbland ft. Katy Perry? Yeah thats the song im doing.

Its a really good chapter :) you can read it online as i upload the pictures on my website agirlslove.weebly.com its a good comic so far from every one thats read what ive done they love it.



My chapter book "Make it or Break it" well its coming along good. But lets face it i have been procrastinating on writeing the damn thing. Oh oh its a good book so they say oh oh its a good book it should may. :D oh oh its a good good book. You'll love it see. Its a good book caus eive written it, you see. Hahaha dont ask. :D

This is my chapter two cover page. :D great picture no? :)
Ok what about this? (See Below)



What is this book about you ask? Easy to say, :) This one Girl, Star, (hehe) has never been on a date or even had a bf. And shes a Junior in HS when her friend found this out her friend had told one and then they told two then they told more. Soon after a week of school Star was made the bachlorette of the school. Soon left and right shes being asked out on a date. And she HAS to go on them. Via the rules her friends had made. Well each date ends badly soon after. Not great right? Well Eric, her bff, has a secret too big to share. This is easy to figure out in the beginning but im nto about to tell you the secret hahaha. But int he end Star will have to chose to have a bff still.
Read the chapters i have up already on my website
starpicture.weebly.com click on the page titled "Make it or Break it Chapters :)"

Well thats all for this post.

Your Wacky Little Writer,
Star :)

Did you know.... >..>???

**WARNING: This is a little more veiwed for GIRLS ONLY!**

Did you know that when a woman is giving birth the cirvix (the tube the sperm travels up to the uterus when enjaculated into the vajay-jay) has to be fully dialated. And did you know that the full dialated cervix is 10cm in diameter, about the size to fit a softball... I mean OUCH!!! o.e

Its very hurt ful to think about.


Did you know that an epidural for a woman in labor is where they stick a needle with the thickness of a fishing line into your spinalcord and it numbs your whole body so you dont feel the pain of birth o.e and whats sucks is that you have to be SUPER FREAKING STILL so they can do the damn process. And it normally last about 5min to do an epidural.



Did you know the womans uterus grows and streches to aboout the sizde of a wtermelon?! OMG! Wow. >.> GAH! Thats creepy.

And lastly

Did you know while everyone is calling the baby inside the womb a baby already its technically not medically concidered a baby until it is born. The 1st 3 months they're called and embryo and the last 6months its called a fetus.



Thats all for this post.

Your Wacky Little Writer,
Star :)

My life Goal: Travel The World

OK so to go along with my WWIII post. I was thinking about my life goal. I want to see the world. Yes i know lame. But its true. I want to see all of Europe. France, Germany, Rome, Spain, Russia, Itialy. All of east countries Japan, China, Tokyo, Hong-Kong, etc. Australia, Africa. All of it. Try new foods. New cultures. Every thing. I might not KNOW their language but hey im up for new things learning new things. And everything. And buyign new things wow!

Buying the latest fashion in France. Some great pottery in Spain. A recipe book from Itialy. New electronics from Tokyo, Japan. A Traditional Kimono from both Japan and China. A henna kit from India. Learn to surf from Australia and buy my own surf board.

Learn new artistic things from all over. It'll be amazing you see. A life ful of new things It'll be great! :D


Thats all for now for this post.


Your Wacky Little Writer,
Sar :)

Kingdom Hearts Gamer Girl and My ex is a Great Friend. :D

So im a gamer girl right? xD
Sure. Lets go with that.
I like any game that my brothers play. Well normally any game.

But im very fond of this one game, that well i hope you guys know about. Uhm its like called Kingdom hearts and well I AM FINAIALLY ALMOST FINISHED WITH THE GAME THAT I STARTED LAST YEAR! xD

Yes i started the game last year but with all that was happening with my mom and all its hard to focus on a game. I love this game its awesome and not to mention i am VERY glad i have the second one... But i wish i had more games.


Which brings me to my next point.
So my ex Andrew. He like loves me. Like really loves me a lot. Still.
Wanna know why?
'Cause he is willingly gonna give me his extra Iphone touch. When he gets a new one, his old XBOX 360 PLUS all the games he doesnt want to play anymore. A 12.5ft stereo with like 4 speakers. And all of his PS2 games. ALL OF THEM.
Not to mention how hes willingly said he would give me $3,800 dollars to go on my France trip. >..> God. I dont like him to where id date him again but man does he rock as a friend. :D

Anyway. Thats all for this post.
And For tonight.

Your Wacky Little Writer,
Star :)

World War 3: A Neuclear War

Ok so we're reading this book Heroshima in english right? Great book. But horrible thoughts.
The book is based on the bombing of Hiroshima in WWII. The atomic bomb back then was probably nothing compared to what we have today. We have enough in the whole world to blow up earth a few dozen times over.

God. Just the thought that the bombs could very well be set off as i write this blog. Or while im out at school. Or spending time with my bf. Or... While im asleep. Or any other time. And here in Nebraska. Its not very good to be living here if they do go off. BOOM! We'd all be dead. Sigh. Its a scary thought. Very scary that the fact that life as we know it could very well.... end at any moment.

Jeez. All i know is that i want to be with my bf if the world ends. 'Cause if WWIII does break out. Theres no surviving. The nuclear war will end us all. Ok im scaring myself now. Im ending this post early xD i might come back to this topic when i finish the book >.>


Your Wacky little Writer,
Star :P

30.11.10

Its been 11 months? Already....?

God. 11months... 11. Already... 11months ago today my mom passed away. Well i have 10 minutes to finish this blog before i can post this... well technically 9minutes. So that way it can still be 11 months when its posted.


Anyway. WOW 11 months. Its almost been a year... a year... ://
Heh. A year.
Oh-My-God!
Its almost been a year. ;(
A FUCKING YEAR!!


God. So much has passed. So much. So so much. I wish my mom was here to listen to me to tell me how to do things. How to talk to people. Give me advice.
Still here so i can tell her all these new things im doing. JROTC events. So i can make her random things for no reason. So she could meet all the new people in my life. See how happy i am. Know how happy i am...
And omg if i hear one more religous rant about how my mom is still with me her spirit lives on with me i swear to god or who the fuck ever up there i am going to UGH!

I wish i had been at school today. I dont knwo how many times ive cried today. UGH! Stupid brother! I woke up late today alarm never went off. :/ And my brother was a lazy FUCKING bum and didnt want to get up around 10am to take me to school. And guess what? He didnt wake up until 12-1pm FUCKING LAZY BUM!

He is now officially dead to me. I Hate him. UGH! im never doing ANYTHING nice for him again.


Anyway, like all my other posts about my mom. i miss her. I love her. And i want her back.

Your Writer,
Star :)

29.11.10

France Trip Help Raise Money ??

SO theres this France Trip for French club this summer right?? (Summer 2011) And the thing is i can go and all but, i need to raise $3,800 for everything for me to get there plus $500 for spending money :// Whats the use right? Thats WAY too much money unless my dad some how ends up inheiriting a really old inheiratence thats worth $200,000,000,000,000 dollars then id have enough to go to France and i'd have more then $500 to spend free will... Sigh. I hate being poor. I wish i had a job. I wish i could pay for things like this...


My plans? well So far all i have is:

-Buy cookie mix and cookie dough and sell 3 cookies in cute little baggies for $4 or $5
-Or do 2 brownies in a Bag for $2 a peice
-Candy bars for $1
-Candy Canes for $2
-Hot chocolate stand? Maybe?


Sigh. Im hopeless. Oh!! Maybe i can sell my gift wrapping expertise? for people with too many gifts to do alone .50 cents per gift i wrap, no?

Sigh. Again im hopeless i need help my goal is to have this done BY the End of April 2011. I think i should talk to my Econ/Lit Teacher for some help...


I need help, Any donations? please? Anything, i mean literally ANYTHING!!!! >..>


ANYWAY Thats all for now,

Your Wacky Little Writer,
Star :)

This Gamer Girl is a Sore Loser xD

Ok so from about 12pm on November 28th (2010) to about 2:30am November 29th (2010) i was playing Kingdom Hearts (the first one, if anyone was to ask) and from about 1am to about 2am i was basically JUST trying to beat one DAMN boss level >.>

I was at the Hollow Bastian world just about the end. the second time i fight Riku (=]) Or in this case Ansem. UGH! Was that so annoying. I was acting out the small scene before the fight word by word be the 10th time i died. xD YES the 10TH TIME!!!! But dont worry i die more then 10 times. x_x

ANYWAY!

The Ansem/Riku boss was frikken hard, 3 EXP levels and each time i got him down by one his tactics on attacking me changed. Sometimes they wouldn't (differing on the time i was re-fighting him) change. The red bar, fairly easy all i ahd to do was dodge his moves or attack when he attacked to block then that would set him off gaurd and i could attack... Woot! Right? Very, except when it got to the yellow bar, then he'd start doing this weird shit... >.< i mean really!? I know it should get harder before you defeat him but i mean C'MON!?!?!!!! Then when it got down to the green, and the last, bar he would be all like "behold the true darkness" and then float into the air then land and go all freaky fast and crazy. I had to dodge that!!! Atacking him was hard!!!

So i had died ---> 14 <--- times before I defeated him and ---> 8 <--- of those times i had came close to beating him like REALLY SUPERLY AWESOMELY CLOSE befor ehe had killed me -_-;; talk abotu frustrating.

Lets just say me dieing about 14 "thounsand, million" times gets pretty interesting. xD I curse alost and yell a lot... AND tend to get very angry... In which i think would be a great show for any one who HAPPENS to be with me while i play xDDD

Any way i defeated Ansem/Riku boss level and Whew, am i glad!!!! Im a sore loser when i dont win the first 3-4 times. any time after ward i TRY (but fail) to keep my voice quiet and my cursing a minimum xD

Anyway, thats all for now (in the morning of today) Oh have i mentioned i havn't gone to bed at all today... i need another glass of Coffee... Make that like 3 xDD


Your Wacky "Sore Loser" Little Writer,
Star xP

26.11.10

Thanks Giving

Ok so i was planning on posting this post yesterday on the actual Thanks giving but by the time i HAD any time to post i was so tired and ready for bed that i just passed out and plus i couldnt exactly do much that night... So heres the post you've been waiting for hahaha, oh and Happy (late) Thanks Giving.

So what i did for this past holiday was fun. My bf came over to my aunts with us. Though we WERE supposed to leave at 12 noon to her house but my dad was catching up with his friend on the phone. We didnt leave until 2pm. Sigh. We got there and he got to see me be my self. I was "the kissing monster" to my little cousins i run around chasing them and when i caight them id kiss them multiple times on the cheeks hahahaha but i think i love my little causin Issabella way more. She willingly gives me kisses hahaha :D But then i was settling down and started playing a game i cant remember the name but it was fun, Me, my cousins Ben and Zach, and my bf switched roles often. Everytime i played and died like 5 million times i would then fork it over to either my bf or my little cousins. Then soon it was just me and my bf playing. :P It was fun xD Then soon i was starting to give up cause the game was more stressful then life itself xD but yeah :P It was fun. We would normally eat an hour we got to my aunts but food wasnt ready til 530 and me and my bf werent gone til 6pm. I ate like two plates of food at my aunts especially her fruit salad :D
Ok now its time for his house. I met his cousin, her husband and her daughter. His aunts and uncles, his other cousin, and i saw his mom, dad, sister, and brother again. We didnt do much there. I ate one more plate of food and finished watching the movie Cat in the Hat :) Then we went up to his room-- ahem, HIS living room layed back and watched tv. We didnt really do much. OMG! I got to cuss out well tell him ex-gf off. The one that cheated on him... >.> ok yeah thats too much info but its was agreat night. So good that i was tuckered out by the end. You know. I passed out on the way home.

Its now The day After the 26th Of November and its 11:26pm. Sigh. My phone wont charge and i need it to last for a long time. No i need a new phone for petes sake. Anyway. Thats it for this post.

Your Wacky Little Writer,
Star :)

Pretty Little Liars Return!!! And The Craigs List Killer true?

Ok so on January 3rd 2011 Pretty Little Liars returns. :) I am SO EXCITED! :D Ive been trying to figure out if i managed to catch all the episodes of last season but i cant tell.. >.> But oh well Its all fun and good with me more then likeley they'll have a marathon for us to catch up I WONT miss that. :D


AND im watching lifetime right now 'cause Sister act 2 is on and well i like it but they keep showing preveiws for this new movie called The Craigslist.Killer and it said "based on a true story' so i looked it up. WOAH now thats a huge shocker. It is true. ive been reading the CBS 48 HOURS MYSTERY section and well DAMN they just make it so scary, it freaks me out. How some oen could do that.
Turns out this had happened last year. (2009) >.> So scary the fact that, that could very well happen here in Nebraska.

Sigh.

But whats the use in stressing over something that could also very well never happen.
I mean things like this happen all the time. Right? Serial killers are all around us right theres no way it couldnt very well be happening now. Though, Nebraska is a dead beat state. If anything is going to make it to the country wide news is if its from the big cities her ein Nebraska.
Nothing big os going to come from Omaha, or Bellvue, or Millard... ok maybe Millard its a big city but these things will more then likely happen in lincoln and ashland and so one. The citys in the west not in the east of Nebraska.


ANYWAY thats all for now in this post.

Your Wacky Little Writer,
Star :)

60th post

Okay People this is my 60th post! Now all i need are 40 more post ideas! :P
This is going to be one LONG winter for the rest of this 2010 year. thats 20 post per week if i want to get to my 100th post goal. :// Well theres no use in trying right?

Well i need post i deas still I've gone through my WHOLE page of ideas already. And the week is barely starting.

Thats all i have for this post Ill have another up within 10-15min or so.

Your Wacky Little Writer,
Star :)

24.11.10

Faveorite Disney Characters

Ok SO Aladdin Rerun tonight has got me thinking of my faveorite Characters

Ok so From Aladding my favorite characters are:
Genie: Because hes so funny and awesome and hes liek the actual acter that plays his voice :D
Abu: Uhm this ones obvi! HE IS A MONKEY! :D

From Beauty and the Beast:
The small tea cup i forget his name but him: Hes cute!!!
The Beast: Cause his story is so sad!
And
Belle: Uhm hello! She gets to spend the day with The Beast! No wait she is exactly liek em i shoudl say :)

From The little mermaid:
Sebastian: Hes french Oh lala~! DUH!

From Cinderella:
The mice: They are just so cute...!!!
Cinderella: Uhm hello shes livingng my fanasty!!!

From The Lion King 1:
Simba: That lion is so furry and cute
Mufassa: Cause its sad how he dies
Crazy Medican Monkey: Uhm again DO i need to explaiN!?

From Tarzan:
Tarzan Of course: Hes HOTT!!! For a cartoon!!
Jane: Shes french
The Apes: AGain no need to explain.

Hmmmm SO readers if you dont mind! Comment your favorite Disney Characters! :D

Thats all.. Mor epost to come :D

Your Wacky Little Writer,
Star :)

RAMEN!!! AND Christmas Shows on ABC Fam.!!! :D

Ramen noodles are so much fun and yummy to eat! :D SPECIALLY BEEF!!! :D

I love Ramen. Im like Naruto! Ramen this and Ramen that Id be happy and set if all i had yo eat in my own house was fruit, Ramen, Ramen, Ramen, and my burritos. And the only thing ot drink was milk, pop, and pop xD

Well Monday or Wensday (next wensday the 1st)Starts the 25 days of christmas count down Its something me and my mom used to do. :)
I love the 25 days of christmas specialties. :D
And i loev the pre-seasonal showings. Yesterday they aired Aladdin! Tonight they are airing Beauty and the Beast! :D I LOVE THAT DISNEY MOVIE!!!!

ANY how. THats all for this Post.

Your Wacky Little Writer,
Star

UGH! I HATE MY DAD!!!

You know my dads starting to piss me off. I mean really????
I sat in the living room to wait for my Ramen to get done cooking and UGH! I was watchignt he news on the Epply Airport and the new metal detectors. A guy comes on and says "Ive been waiting to see my gf for 2 months now..." I go "Awww thas so sweet!" and my dad in the most mean way ever goes. "Hes a nerd. *mocks guy* dump the bitch. Get rid of the whore. She doesnt love you." >..< really!? wtf!?
Then after 5 minutes i say "I have never set foot in an airport before." cause the lady was talkign about coming down and hoping on one and going places or something like that. And my dad goes "And you never will."
Ok that does it. My new family goal is to graduate High school finish general studies in Metro and then once done HOPEFULLY get accepted to the college i want to go to and then im out, im gone. BUH-Bye father.

UGH! I hate being here. yes ill miss most eveyr one dearly but i want out of this hell hole state! See the world. See the country. Live my life. !!!!


Sigh.


Well thats all for now. Im off to baby-sitt ill try to post something tomarrow... If not then maybe when i get back from the Boyfriends house.

Your Wacky Little Writer,
Star :))

23.11.10

Powerpuff girls Have lost memebers?? And Why am i scared now!?

Irrelevently lately i've been in the mood to draw my own anime versions of The Power Puff Girls and been looking up other peoples versions for ideas of my own. Til i stumbles on one where there were THREE red characters (im also doing the Roudy Rough Boys) THREE blue characters, THREE green characters and , get this, a purple chgaracter... >..>
I mean WTF? Red: Blossom, Brick, and Berserk... Blue: Bubbles, Bloomer, and Brat... Green: Buttercup, Butch, and Brute... and Purple is Bunny. They can't just do that!? Adding four new characters!!!!And i mean the anime version, they can't just add four new characters to a new version and ruin the traditional Power Puff Girls vs. The Roudy Rough Boys. These four are supposevy called the LOST Power Puff Girls... PUH-lees!!!!

I know im getting worked up over this but the PPG were my faveorite super heros of all time! Now... they're ruined but "the lost PPG" :( what has this world come to?

Sigh.

Oh well ima still draw my version of the PPG (excluding the lost ones) and the RRB.


ANYWAY Its almost thanksgiving and im excited though tomarrow (the 24th) im baby sitting for my Sister, who by the way is making herself out to be a complete loon to my bf... Im staying over at her house then shes bringing me back home before 9am... :) That way i can be here whne my bf shows up and then WOOT!!!! :D Im happy, He meets my Fam i meet his... >..> now why is it that ive had confidence for the past 2 weeks now only 2 days away and im scared out of my wits???
sigh. Dammit...

Any way thats all.

Your Wacky Little Writer,
Star :)

22.11.10

Peircings and This week.

So randomly i decided to ask my dad if i could get my eyebrow peirced and all he had to say (instead of his normal objection) "And when would you want this?" and i had to think about that. Jokeingly i said "Sometime before you start shifts???" He starts that next week on December 1st. Sigh. Oh goody. Goodbye freedom. But any way he gave me the 'No way thats happeneing then' look. and i laughe dit off and said, "How about some time during winter break??? Like were doing for my permit test again?" he sat there for a bit at first iw as thinking i knew he wasnt all for it but then he goes "Sure."
God, as much as i miss my mom. In a way i love that shes gone.. :) I get a lot of things that my mom would have said no to right away and the second she says that my dad agrees. So i miss and love my mom and all but.... I GET TO GET MY EYEBROW PEIRCED! >.> well that really depeneds wheather or not the belly button peircing would be more painful. Which ever is more painful to get it over with and all. You know? Besides i had the rest of sophmor eyear to get my eyebrow peirced then the beginning of my Junior year to get my lip peirced :D

So i have an assignment for my readers (if i have any) should i get (for my lip peircing):

Snake bites:


Spider Bites:


Or normal:



So thats your assignment Please Comment your answers!

Also,
I'm getting new glasses tomarrow after school. Sigh. So much for trying to complete my dishes tomarrow. >.> Oh well theres always next week. i can finish them by Tuesday still on sched. This weeks fucked up due to thanks giving break and all. Yawn. They should have just given us the whole week off instead of making us come to school for two days of the week >..> But oh well.

Thats all for now got to go to bed! Its 11pm here and i have a long day ahead of me tomarrow. NEW GLASSES! *feels nerdy for being excited over new glasses*
>..> I wish my dad would let me get contacts :P

Your Wacky Little Writer,
Star :D

Ps. Still waiting for some new posts ideas so i can meet my goal of having the 100th post before the new year! Much love :D!

21.11.10

RANDOMNESS >..>

Haven't we alll done something weird when we're bored???
Like, Laying down on our backs and staring at the fan propeller go round.
Or when we were kids wonder why the D in disney looked like a G. Or when you're too lazy to go get a glass for a friend to take a sip of your pop you pour a mini shot into the cap :)
How about said a word over and Over until it didn't even seem like a word any more??

Well this post is to be like a re-peat post. I'm going to go all out and try and update some posts i've already posted.


If you really knew me:

If you really knew me then you'd knwo i say things i dont mean half the time because i (most the time) liek the out come of what happens.
You'd know i say im ugly half the time because i love to hear people call me pretty or beautiful mainly because i dont get called that a lot.


>..> Thats all i can think about to update hahahaha some update post xD!!

Well thats all

Your Wacky Little Writer,
Star :D

Ps. People need to start giving me ideas if i'm to get to my goal of posting the 100th post before new years day!!! Dx

19.11.10

Caffee, Boyfriend, Pottery, Presents, Frenchy Mood, and ranting. C'est Amusant.

J'ai Café!!! :D

I also have an amzing boyfriend. Hahaha Also known as my mystery man, who will still remain unknown to thy readers. :)
Merci beaucoup ou mon petit ami j'ai tres amusant. :) Thanks very much to my boyfriend i am so funn... Ok hyper mais, but, i don't know the word for that in french.
Je ne suis pas. I don't know. hahaha Je parle en francais une petite. I speak in french a little.
J'aime ma classe de francais. I love my french class.
Hahaha d'accord, ok. Back to the blog.

Ok so as you've read i'm a bit hyper from coffee and im in the mood for french. Im listeing to a french ong i just randomly found on youtube. I do NOT know the name to it. Je ne suis pas le nom. Also did i mention im lookign around for my notebook with my chapters in it? So i can work on the chapter 5 i need to finish so i can start writeing chapter 6-10 then revise 6-10, type 6-10, draw the cover pages to 6-10, and then post both the chapters and cover pages to my website. >...>

This week i have been making christmas presents that possibly wont be finished until a few months after the damn holiday. >..> but its worth it.. next year if i decide to make pottery christmas presents i'll just start the beginning of the year :// Hopefully by next year ill have my licence and my own car so that way i can have a zero hour class. Yes a xero hour class. I need some extra credits so i know some things. i need to take like a whole bunch of graphic art classes, while still managing to be able to take the 2 electives i WANT to take and also take that extra math class so i can go into calc by my SR year. or what ever higher class math class i can take... Im a nerd sue me.

i've realized the two differant versions of honey i use. I use "hon" for who ever im dateing, and im glad to be useing the word for mon petit ami, my boyfriend. And the version "hun" for guy friends. I'm just now realizing it. Mainly because je ne suis pas, i dont know, how many time si said 'hon' to mon petit ami, my boyfriend today and i said 'hun' a few times today too. Though they both seem to sound like they are pronounced the same mais, but, no they arn't. Well not when i say it any how.

Have i mentioned that i've been making christmas presents in pottery? I only really know how to make a few things and im experamenting with how to make a few things. >...> i know how to make tiles and sushi dishes. I'm making 9 tiles. 3 sushi dishes. 3 jewelry boxes. 1 charm and **sigh** a top hat >..> YES A TOP HAT!!!! :D Its for a friend. Well most of all of these are for friends. I have one for my brother, my brother and his fiance, my siter, my nephew, and my dad. 3 are tiles. 1 is a jewelry box, and one is a sushi dish. I'm hopeing at leats they get done before break >..> if not... **sigh** oh well.

Now I'm making it through the night doing no home work :) making the 10 bracelets i need to make for the 10 friends that don't get a pottery present. ://
This is goign to be a long weekend...

Well thats all. C'est finnir. Im finished.
Ill blog another post later.

Vouz Farfelu Petit Auteur,
Etoile ;))
Your Wacky Little Writer,
Star :))

11.11.10

51st post!!!! ((and a rant of my bf =//))

51st post!!!!! :D

Now my new goal is to reach 100 post BY new years Eve.... c'mon people help me with blog ideas for the 100th Post to be ON new years eve. Hell if i have to I'll write the post while im with my boyfriend. ((if me and him are hanging out that night))



Speaking of my boyfriend. SO i hate my bf's friends. And most of all i think i cause him so much trouble in his life since we started dateing;
1, He never gets any home work done... >..> I bet he never did but i mean lie he procrastinates even mor enow i bet
2, He never gets much sleep any more >...<'''
3, I think his friends just ultimately hate me....


I get it 2 years differance big no no for some people, but WHAT. THE. F***!!!??? So what???
Yes hes 17. YES im 15. Yes ill be 16 when he becomes a legal adult... -_-'' SO WHAT!??
Its better us be 2 years apart then 3 or 4 years apart right?
It'd still be technically legal any way. So its not like hes gonna become a cradle robber over night... >...<

Anyway... i hate his friends. i love mine. They are so accepting of our relationship. Even some of ME senior friends are accepting of it... xDD
but yet all of HIS senior friends dissapproves of it.. =//
I'd like to know for real why is it so bad that me and him are dateing.???

*sigh*

What ever. i dont care. As long as he doesnt care what his friends are saying and stays with me then im all right. :))

8.11.10

Demented Twisted Mind

Have you ever sat there in a seemingly harmless situation and something out of place and dark and visious... Hahaha or i mean something that looks like it will cause something vicsious or unsettleing?

I always do.
Today on the bus ride home from school. Some how one of the emergency windows opened. And i didnt knwo this until i saw the driver close it. I was lsitening to my MP3 player and all i heard was the faint talk of my driver saying something and then i heard a peer to say "I dont want to die" and instantly i imagined the bus driver telling us that the brakes didnt work and we were going about 40mph. Then we'd be driving for a while until we run out of gas and until the bus crashed. i kept replayign over an dover the many ways the bus would crash.


I findmyself with many disturbing and demented thioughts... I like grusome things. But i think our mind is the most gory and imaginative demented and detailed movie there is. And mine just tends to wonder on its own.
Everyday i arrive at school and go through school wondering if there will be an shooting or a terrorist attack or a bombing threat. Anything. Not just becaus ei want to be out of school but because i live my life for somethign bad to happen. i do dangerous things so i can come out with a broken bone or a gushing gap in my skin
I thkn dementedly and stupidly but i am smart. I know when and how not to do things. i sometimes even avoid the msot fun and risky things because i do get scared.


Well tis all for now my readers,
Your Wacky Little Writer,
Star :)

4.11.10

Mystery man and Terms

So, Most of my friends by now KNOW who my Mystery Man is... And I havn't Exactly said a lot to many people.

Tashi knows cause shes like my best friend, and she asked when I made her and AD walk over to him with me wensday morning.
AD knows because well he was still with me and Tashi when she had asked me.
Llani knows because I was giddy in Child Dev. and had asked.
Shannon knows because she over heard in Child dev.

Anyone else who knows wasn't my fault >..> Alyssa told.

My Mystery Man is still unknown to my readers :) Thank you very much... hahaha Sorry but im not about to let any one who reads this go onto my FB and interrogate him.


So heres the story;

Me and him arn't dateing. Well not officially yet. We had agreed to make our own terms for each other, like expectations, hahaha... Weird I know. We cannot tell one another about what the terms are until we are both finished. (THAT was his idea, sadly I think his will be more realistic than mine... because I dont know what his are exactly. :/ The only one that I am aware of is the flirting situation I have. Though for him im willing to stop any natural bad habits I have. If i can. >.>
My terms are so dumb though. They're the things that every boyfriends should ALREADY do. So I highly doubt im making him sign into much, but the already expected.
ANYHOW yesterday was SUPOSSED to be the deadline, umm, well :/ I was writeing the damn terms but had to stop a lot because I was writieng them in school during class. >..> So i only got sections 1 and 2 finishe di still need to write section 3. THEN i'll be done.
Ok So other than writeing terms Me and my Mystery Man are some what a thing. I'll admitt though still being single while knowing I might have a bf soon is killing me.
**sigh** the bad part is we, me and MM, kinda hurt this one girl. Alyssa. She uh... She was having me try and get him to go out with her, i already knew my MM but i only talked to him once which was last year and the one time i ever saw him at MAD club.
SO i had to talk to him more so it wont be socially awkward when i tried ot talk to him about it. But the mor ei talked to him the more i started ot liek him. THe mor ei started ot liek him the mor ei hated the fact i was helping Alyssa to get him.

So in a way it's not liek i completely MEANT to do it. >.> Yeah ill admitt when i realized who he was when she gave me his profile link on FB i was like, "I know who he is!!!" and then to myself i was like, "And, Still is cute assss ever!!!!!!!!"
I didnt realiz ei liked him a lot until i talked to him and became addicted to hopeing he was online eveyr time i got on.
We exchanged numbers then we started talking when i was at an ROTC thing. I kinda managed to talk him into coming to a HALLOWEEN party with me later that day. :)

LONG STORY SHORT >.> Me and my MM are going to go out but we need terms written. IN WHICH i hope they get signed by Friday or by Monday.


Well thats it.
Your Wacky Littel Writer,
Star :)

2.11.10

Things Star Needs ^_^;;

Ok so, little miss Star needs a few things.

1. This chicka needs MONEY >...< i mean DESPERATELY needs it
2. This Fille needs a NEW PHONE, mine is broken and shockingly still running >..>
3. I want a NEW CAMERA, i cry almost every time i look at the camera my dad said i could have.... Its was my moms. Screen cracked... **sigh**
4. I need a JOB you know.... to get MONEY to afford a new phone and cam.
5. I..... Neeed.... New..... Glasses!!!!!! >..> Mine are broken.

Hahahahahahahaha Thats about it sorry xD Random ness off topics xD

I has Hottt CHocolate and ice creeeem which is bad combo at 1am on a monday night xD

Your Wacky Little writer,
Star :)

1.11.10

November A month to remember! AND SALAD FINGERRS!

Ok for starters, I can only announce that I have an "Mystery Man" If y'all shall want to call him that hahaha.
The most I can say is he's insanely cute and he just might have stolen my heart >..> Yeah cheesy I know, but iut might be true. Though, NO I AM not saying I am IN Love already. >..> Oh and he goes to my school.

I'm sorry but t'is all I can tell you xD

Ok next. Paranormal Activity 2!!!! Lets see if this movie makes me scream too O.o DUDE I AM ALREADY FRIGGIN' SCARED!!!!! Hehehehe it's cuddle buddy time ;)

Terms. Terms of a relationship.... Hahahahahaha I have to stop flirting O.o Does any one have any rubber bands????? >...> Ima do one of those snap therapy things liek they do for cutters. Where every time they have an erge to cut they snap the rubber band. Well eveyr time i catch myself flirting ima snap the rubber band sooner or later I'll stop xD O.O hopefully sooner RATHER than later.

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Ok Has ANY ONE ever heard of Salad Fingers?
hehehehehehe "Whats wrong Mr. Fingers? Do you not like my mouth wooords???!"
"EHE!!! Hubert Cummerdale You taste like soot and poo... **tear**"
"I-I think I shall c-call you M-Milfred Cubicle."
"I like it when the red water comes."
"I like it when the red water comes, makes me think of happier times."
"K-kenneth? Is that you? Come to see your o-older brothar? Brave K-kenneth back from the great war."
xDDDDD I love! Salad! Fingers!
Its a very disturbing, demented, and creative Video on Youtube i HAVE ever SEEEEN!!!! :D


Thats all for tonight. I need to stop procrastinatiing my chem, algebra, and French homework!!!! xDD

Your Wacky Little Writer,
Star