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27.1.11

Recipe Book. A Project Left for it self to build :)

Ok so im making a recipe book from recipes i find online.
it will rang from.
Breakfast Meals, to br-unch, to lunch, to snacks, to dinner, to desserts, to late night snacks/drinks, to beverages, to early morning snacks.
Healthy to Fattening.
Elegant to Random.
Gourmet to sloppy.
Delicate to freaking WOW!

Yummy to DELICIOUS!!!!

XD Any way my job for my readers today is. Look up recipes online for me to look at if the dish sounds good but the website resource doesnt work Ill look it up. Who knows i just night even add the online recipes from your suggestion of a dish into the book :)
Or you can basically just gimme recipes to look up!!! :D i mean the name of the dish XD

Perferabley this is the one time im ok when you comment the link i give in my FB page but is till HIGHLY RECOMMEND TO COMMENT in my blog !!! please thank you! :D

Yummy Good Day!
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Poem Poll and QUOTES!

Minute by Minute. Hour by Hour. Day by Day. My love grows.
Hour by Hour. Day By Day. Week by Week. My love for you never ends.
Day by Day. Week by Week. Month by Month. My love for you is stronger.
Week by Week. Month by Month. Year by Year. My love for your never falters.
Month By Month. Year by Year. Decade by Decade. My love seems to never fail.
Year by Year. Decade by Decade. Century by Century. My love for you is full of wonders.
Decade by Decade. Century by Century. Milenium by Milenium. My love for you just gets bigger and bigger.
But by Eterny's end. My love for you seems to go on forever.


:) "Love looks not with the eyes, but with the mind; Therefore is winged Cupid painted blind."

New poll up! How many Of my readers think that Love is blind?
Im not telling you MY answer. Because im not going to vote in this poll this time.
I'm sorry yes i know sad xD but hey All is fair in Love and War :)
Life love bliss. Today is full of my own Petit quotes. :)

Dont forget to Vote!!

Much love this Comming month!!!

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25.1.11

Shakespearian Speak.

So im reading this book my lovely Random friend had suggested to me. A great book. GREAT!

I oh so love this one quote they have in it from Romeo&Juliet 'Good night! Good night! Parting is such sweet sorrow, that i should say good night till it be marrow'
I have that one memorized i didnt even have to look at the quote nor even double check. Im that sure.
Another one i love is
'Love looks not with the eyes, but with the mine; And therefore is winged Cupid painted blind' I sent that one to my bf =3

Those by far are my favorite. Well this is by far my shortest blog post ever.
'Cause its my bed time. 'Good Night! Good night! Parting is such sweet sorrow, that i should say good night till it be marrow.' hehehehe

Ok nighty night readers.

Yours every Post,
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18.1.11

Nightmares.

Normally i would sit here and tell you what the nightmare was about. but they're pretty fucked up...

So lets not have me do that.... Lets just say... it involves me my bf and well death... instantly a fucked up nightmare...

So instead what ima do is i will say some old nightmares that ive had.
Ok so no i wont. I'm going to say some of the things that i've had nightmares err daymares? about ok basically talking about my demented imagination when i can imagine something happening.


-One time i imagined a huge box full of like 20,000,000lbs things dropping on the heads of two people holding hands in this one aisle of a store.
-Everyday when im at school i always imagine some crazy ass student will walk in in a trench coat and sport a huge shot gun and we'd all be in lock down.
-Half the time when some one doesnt reply to a text message for 15min. or more instead of thinking they're busy or distracted i imagine them being kidnapped, or murdered then when they text back im half tempted to ask so are you hurt?
-When i draw i repress the urge to draw a completely gory scene.
-I once had a nightmare where i was in a horrible remake of friday the 13th and me and whomever i was dateing (or had a crush on) then were running to saftey when a knife or machette just was split throuigh his torso as we reached the main roasd adn i spun on my heel looked down and started backing intot he street crying at the look and then next thing you knwo im 2 seconds away from being run over by a huge semi. >..>

Ok yeah thats enough im going to get nightmares again tonight if i continue. >..<


SO good nigth people.


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17.1.11

Three projects for ONE!!!

Project one:
Write Make it or Break it Chapters continuous, errr, until end. Haha!

Project Two:
Write/Draw my Music video on paper, Wil post new photos up later, O.o
xD

Project Three:
Draw each pokemon in my own lil way :D Will make a realll FAST youtube video when im done, IF and WHEN im done. I will make one photo each night and Post each Done picture i make before a new blog. So for example. If i do one tonight then one every night after this post and i dont post for like 10days i will post 10 done pictures. Or 9 depending if the night of the blog's picture is done. :P

Well thats all Goign to bed now.

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14.1.11

Dont do something to some one unless you would like it to happen to you.

SO have you readers ever seen those commercials where they always end it by saying something like "Its a thin line between fun and Forever" or "Its a thin line between love and controlling" and normally they have a teen explain the situation.

Well Its called the "A Thin Line" commercials. Thy talk about dating abuse, digital direspect, sexting, and cruelty.

Well heres my story. From growing up i havnt exactly grown up with full emotional support. Kindergarden, YES FUCKING KINDERGARDEN, i was picked on. No not the play gorund bully way, it was some really hard core shit that you woouldnt think a kindergardener would ever have the feelings to hate some one so much. There was this girl. ((Since i havnt got any concent to use name ill keep ASIA QUALLS anonnymous. :P)) And she didnt exactly like me. I had this bestfriend ((again no consent so JASMIN WEIHE will be anonnymous)) she was a great friend. I could talk to her about anything. She was my first ever best friend... I stayed over at her house she stayed over at mine. ASIA never liked me. I dont know why. She constantly made up lies about me, and because i never really knew what the teacher was talkign about the teacher believed HER ove rme becaus ei was always smileing and for some reason she was a convincing crier. 1st ans 2nd grade i was sent to the PAC room ALOT thanks to ASIA. She liked to torment me until i lost my temper and started yelling back then the water works came and she got the teacher on her side you know what i'd hear? "Go to the PAC room." You'd think that hearing the insults "Your stupid" or "your ugly" wouldnt affect a 6-7year old. But they did. Whenyou heard the same insult for about 3-9years of your life, with additional insults as the years passed, for 8 hours every day 5 days a week, and 10 months a year. They start to stick. They start to really affect how some one looks at them selves. They start to make an mental impression, an emotional scar.
By 3rd grade i have been LITERALLY spit on by ASIA and her friends, called a racist to mexicans.. er well Latinos in general. Soon i had no friends to back me up, no one to talk to. By 5th grade. My so called best friend ditched me for this girl ((no consent so KAITLIN will be anonnymous)) she started dressing sluttier, and more make up that made her look like a drag queen, she started insulting me when KAITLIN did, and soon i started having peopel soem up to me and asking me if what JASMIN and KAITLIN said here true. NO IT WASNT now dont ask.!
Now i did make a new friend in 5th grade, the first one ive had since.. well for 6 years i pretty much didnt really have any friends. Kayla was my first friend ever. It soon was later that i realized the guy i was crushing on was Kaylas brother. And she has openly admitted that i was annoying to her and she didnt like me very much... And i alwasy explain that what do you expect when a girl has been emotionally scarred and insulted for a long time. When i knew Kayla had finally softened up around me i became well like a duckling who follows there mother every where. Kayla made me feel good. She made me realize that not eveyr one can be cruel.
In 7th grade me and Kayla were in my standards best friends. Her family had become my second family. They were there just as fast as kayla was. Im not saying that the insulsts stopped there.
Once peopel found out as they got older what some words meant i wasnt called Ugly or stupid any more. i was called:
-Ugly as fuck
-the most retarted person they've known
-A back stabbing bitch
-A slutty skank
-A whore
-A friendless hobo (you know because my family was poor)
-A stuck up nerd
And the list goes on for ever.
I normally wouldtn openly admitt this. But In 8th grade things changed for the worse, i almost lost Kayla either, in 7th grade still or 8th grade year.. (i think 8th grade) Im not going to detail on that, I didnt loose her fully though. I was jumpped many times that year because i was supposevly always talkign behind peoples back and callign then bitches and whores, and slutts and skanks, and all that... Now befor ei finish this id like to ask "WHY THE HELL WOULD SOME ONE LIKE ME SIT HERE AND CALL THE PEOPLE,, WHO HAVE BEEN TORMENTING ME FOR EVER CALLING ME those NAMES,, A SKANK, WHORE, BITCH. etc??"
The second and Last time of the year i got jumped the girl ((who again in no consent BRITTANY DIAMOND will stay anonnymous)) said i wanted to get into a fight with her "home girl" ((ROBIN will be anonnymous)) and that because of me [really was her fault for sending me the damn threating voice message] she got suspended. She got grounded for getting suspended. So she wanted to beat me up,, also because ive been callign her a bitch and a slutt and a skanky whore and a easy target to have sex with behind HER back.. Do i have to repeat the question i just asked?
So thats my story, ive been emotionally scarred for life. I still wonder if what i look like is beautiful or ugly. I can still point out my flaws and say all the things my bf would say are beautiful about me.

I think from being called dumb, stupid and all those names i have mentally made myself beleive that i am dumb, so when i work hard in school its not because it'll help me get an A but because i litterally need to work hard or i wont get it at all. I will literally be dumb in that. It sticks once i get it. But it wont stick for long.

And when ti comes ot my looks. Well its a no brainer there. I feel about just as ugly as i feel. They way i dress low cut shirts, short skirts/shorts. TIght jeans. They're just anything to get people from staring at my face. Not becaus ei want attention at those parts. I just dont want people looking at my face. Which is why i like when my hair is in my face.

So theres my story, dont pick on some one when yoou dont know why you dont like them you just dont like them, dont make them feel bad because once its told to some one for years everyday 5 days, 10 months a year 9 years of their life for even one or two years, It really sticks. Up until the start of the summer before freshman year i started ot believe i was a whore. Or a slut. Not because i slept with any one, but because i was going through 5-8 boyfriends a year. it gradually went down to 6 a school year. then 4... Now ive mad eit to a all time 3 so far. And the third one is making me happy. And doubt we'll break up.. I actually beleive (and i still do) that i am ugly. I still try to find ways that would make ME feel beautiful.
As much as i love to hear people call me beautiful, pretty, or cute, i dont beleive them. But i fish for those compliments. Because i know some day ill believe it, just as long as i have people who can constantly say this to me. Make me feel good. Make me feel great. Make me Feel like i matter...

Whats your story, or whats a story you know? Feel like you need to tell your story. Feel heard. Go to they give you a page that you can tell them your story. Tell them what you think should be done. Or what you know have happened to some one.

My advice to every one. Dont make fun of some one, and make them feel bad. Just how much do you think you'd feel if it was you in their shoes? And dont say you wouldnt care!? Because thats the exact line i'd used from 4th grade all the way up to 8th grade. Even when i had gotten jumped. I said i didnt care. But deep down it hurt so much to know, someone , who i barely ever talked to, hated me so much...

So dont pick on people you dont know ANYTHIGN about. 'Caus emaybe just one day you'll be working for that same person. Or you'll be the reason why they commit suicide or the reason why theres a shooting at your school. Or even the reason why you're dead, your friends are dead, and that person is in jail. Emotional affects like this can scar people for ever.

Im a prime mental example.


Think before you speak. And if what you think about isnt very smart or nice. Keep it to yourself. Jokeing has its borders. And theres a thin line between I was just kidding and i really mean it

--Star

9.1.11

First Post of the year.

Ya know what? Next year for new years eve Im hanging out with my boyfriend, and we ARE going to kiss at 11:59 and it WONT end until 12:01 so that way i have a pefect ending a great beginning. :) Yes, i did indeed just steal that from a FB like. but hey its what this girl wants. And hopefully its what this girl is going to get :)

Anyway. One semester down. 100 post acheived. 1.5 years done 2.5 years to go. What i mean by that is freshman and 1/2 of sophmor eyear is over. I only have four more months till sophmore year is over and i will be a soon to be Junior. Then a Senior. Then id be goign to Metro for general studies for college. Then id be going to the Creative Center for my bachelors degree in Graphic art. Im almost out of high school people?!

My boyfriend is almost about to graduate. In which i am signing his year book xD.. Im going to prom this year. And again in two years for my senior year.
God, two years and im done with high school, then im off to college.
You know theres a good feeling when you have to end the school year finally. But a great feeling when it starts back up.

Its not goignt o be easy sitting in those seats on graduation day. Listening to everyone speak then having our names called. Saying good bye isnt goign to be easy, especially for me. :/ I mean i only JUST started my life. And its already almost over? WHAT THE HELL!?

Any way, me and my boyfriend are going strong. :P
Even though he'll be graduating this year and my dad hasnt exactly chewed my head off about dateing a senior yet. And that he might be getting a full time job after he graduates and will be going to college... Well we might not see eachother as much as i'd like but hey we'll manage. Haha

So anyway last year my BFF was Ceirra.. Some how me and her dont exactly talk any more? I do not know why!! But Im managing to try and hang out wiht her BUT she has a job and i dont know when she is available. And when ever i text her it doesnt exactly last as long as i hope? So this year my BFF is Tasha. Me and Ceirra talk and when we do it sliek we're BFF still, and we are but not as close. I guess.

So me and my boyfriend. Who by the way wil still always remain unknown in my blogs xD... Even though i think every one knows who he is. Any way. We finally crossed off one item of things to do on our list of things to do. We walked around downtown last night, last 2 hours before we were frozen, so we're going to go again in spring xD But we visited 3 stores. So we only fully walked around for a good 10minutes total and spent a good 1 hour and 50 minutes in those stores xD but the first store we visited. It was like going back intime. Seeing all these old things. It was so cool, and he bought me a star necklace :) SO far every boyfriend, except for three, that ive had the past year has gotten me a star necklace. But i think this one is my faveorite. :) kinda. I mean the one that broke at my sisters house was my favorite. NOT because of WHO gave it to me, but because of how small and cute it is. plus i could actually lift it and put it in my mouth!? xD sorry but its a bad habit of mine. If its around my neck and it wont break when i chew on it, then it will be put in my mouth. If i can get it in my mouth. LOL Oh not to mention that the star was a diamond. Not metal around stud diamonds. but anyway i do love his necklace he bought me. It really does make me just as happy. :))
THe second store i was freake dout by a lot of the halloween looking props O.e
And the third store. I am so going back for some of those books, games, sketchbooks, calenders, toys, and so much more lol xP

Overall going back to school was great and i am glad to be back. Though just means even more reasons why me and my boyfriend arnt hanging out most days. Not to mention how much i am NOT likeing his father. I mean a curfew... When your a senior?! I mean yes i have a curfew as to when i should be home BUT thats because I AM A SOPHMORE. I mean if i was a senior i probably would just lie to my dad and say im at a friends house working on a project. LOL
Still a 10pm curfew? My brother didnt even have that, it was be home around 1am. Well i started an honors class this semester. Great right? I mean great when appliying for scholarships and so on.Not to mention it looks GREAT when applying for a job too xD

SIMS 3: My bf has let me borrow the game right? I made an new game in it and it is fun Like extremely fun. I made 2 sims, me and him. Im onyl ONE day into it and me and his sim are already bf/gf and he alreayd wants to propose >..< they're onyl young adults XP wtf!? Im waiting till they both become adults lol So that way they both can THEN get married LOL After i make them woo xD jk

Anyway thats all for this post... This long ASS post.
Till next time.

Yours,
Star